The Six Degrees Of Separation

Chapter 9 : Vow

Oliver and I went strong; he was in my homeroom so he always walked me to my classes. He was so sweet and always talked to me in person and online. 

He'd bombard my Skype chats with pick up lines that made me blush and smile.

Ollie Au: if looks could kill you'd be a weapon of mass destruction (;

Ollie Au: i must be a snowflake cuz ive fallen for you!

Ollie Au: can i have a picture of you? cuz i want santa to know exactly what i want for christmas<3

Ollie Au: do you have a bandaid? cuz i hurt my knee when i fell for you(:

Ollie Au: if i got a penny for every time i thought about you... i'd only have a penny cuz you'd never leave my mind.

He had to be the sweetest thing that ever happened to me. 

I loved him so much.

In no more than a week, mostly everyone in the school knew we were dating. I loved how we were going public, unlike Aaron who wanted to keep our relationship a secret from most people. I loved Oliver in every single way possible. But there was something that bothered me. It itched at me like a mosquito bite, but I couldn't quite put my finger on it. 

I came to a conclusion after a few weeks. It was the fact that Oliver probably had never liked me as much as he had liked Whitney. 

Whitney was everything. She was French and Candian; not French-Canadian but actually French AND Canadian. Whitney was pretty, popular, gorgeous... Everything that a girl wanted to be. It was obvious that Oliver wouldn't like me as much as he'd liked Whitney, and why would he even like ME if he had had someone like Whitney? Whitney was the girl that every guy wanted, and that's who Oliver had had. So why switch to a complete disaster like me? I was the exact opposite of Whitney. I wasn't pretty, beautiful, cute, and I wasn't necessarily popular. My friends always disagreed with me; they said that I was really pretty and that I WAS popular. I didn't believe them. I wasn't popular, although I wasn't unpopular. I was stuck in the middle, and so were my looks. 

On Facebook, he had always boasted about her to everyone. They were such a well-known power couple. But for me, he did nothing. He was still single on Facebook. I know that just because its not Facebook official doesn't mean it's not real, but making if Facebook official would make me reassured that it's true. We're dating. But he didn't. He didn't boast about me, he didn't write compliments on photos of me, he didn't change his relationship status.

Surely his feelings weren't that strong, and dating a complete klutz disaster like me, his feelings probably wouldn't become any stronger. I felt like I heard my heart crack. Were all my relationships going to go down the drain? When was there ever going to be a guy that liked me as much as I liked him? What would happen to my perfect love story? 

Aisling de Beauvoir, one of my best friends chatted me one day during Christmas break. 

aisling de amazingg: guess what i found outtt? 

leighton evans(:: what?

aisling de amazingg: you want to know why oliver asked you out? 

leighton evans(:: OMG YES.

Aisling told me. 

She told me why Oliver asked me out on that random December day. He'd liked me for a while, but was dating Whitney at the time. But when he found out that I was probably going to move in two months or so, he had chosen to ask ME out instead of getting back together with Whitney as he always did. 

I asked Aisling how she knew. 

aisling de amazingg: well i have my sources...

But this meant that. If I wasn't planning on moving, he wouldn't of asked me out. He would've gone straight back to Whitney. So if I wasn't moving after all, would he go back to Whitney again?

It continued like that. I was always feeling unstable because I knew that I wasn't an ideal girlfriend like Whitney was for him. 

But I pretended to be fine. I didn't want people asking me what was wrong when they didn't really care. They would listen, but they never had any advice and they'd just continue on with their life stories. So I plastered on a smile and never revealed my actual feelings. 

Sure, overall I loved being with Oliver Au, but Whitney and her posse started ignoring me and giving me glares. Mostly Whitney, Yvonne Ng, and Ginny Dahl. 

Especially Ginny. She disliked me the most. She complained how I'd broken the girl code of frienship, with one of the rules being that you couldn't date your best friend's ex. 

Well, Whitney didn't really like me anymore. Anyways, Oliver was probably going to go back to her anyways...

So I vowed that I wouldn't fall in love with Oliver, so I wouldn't be depressed if he broke up with me to go back to Whitney. 

I would keep that promise, no matter what. I had to. To protect myself.