The affair

Five

For two weeks now I avoided Jon at all costs which was extremely difficult as I have to see him at work, but I managed it even though the whole entire time I saw him I completely and utterly ached to talk to him.

I arrived at work and did the usual routine of wardrobe and makeup then went and done my scenes before taking a break.

After my break with Andrew we head back quietly to the set seeing filming was taking place, I walk over to Norman who was watching the screen with Gale Anne Hurd.

I stand there looking at the screen seeing Jon and Laurie doing a scene together the scene soon ends up getting rather heated and I stand there watching Laurie and Jon getting it on in a car.

Jealousy quickly fills my entire body I shifted on my feet as I watched the screen, I was fighting the urge to to scream out at them to stop but I knew I couldn't for two reasons.

Firstly there filming secondly Jon's not mine to get jealous over, his a married man.

I stood uncomfortably as I watched the scene biting on my nails, when it was over I walked over and made myself busy talking to Sarah and Andy trying not to show how much seeing that scene bothered me.

As we talked Andy waved Jon over to us which caused my body to fill with nerves, I quickly excused myself passing Jon as I leave the set.

I paced up and down in my trailer biting nervously on my fingernails when there was a knock on the trailer  door, I walk over answering it seeing it was Jon.

I walk backwards letting him in and I start pacing back and forth again.

"So you wanna explain to me why you have been avoiding me for the past two weeks?" Jon started as he closed the trailer door.

"I haven't been avoiding you" I lied turning around to look at him.

"Well it sure looks that way" Jon grunted as he leans his weight on the wall of the trailer.

"Why are you here?" I asked him.

"Sarah and Andy said you seemed off on set a moment ago, just come to see what's going on with you" he explained.

"Nothing is going on with me" I lied again biting on my nails still, I looked at Jon knowing I couldn't admit to him how I truly felt as I knew that's what he would want to hear.

"Well something is sure bothering you" Jon said to me "you're been biting on your nails the entire time I've been standing here, and I know you well enough to know that's what you do when something is bothering with you"

I quickly move my hand away from my mouth and I stare at Jon as I shift nervously on my feet.

"So" Jon muttered as he leaned there "are you going to tell me what's eating you up, or am I going to have to guess?" He asked me.

I quickly looked away from Jon avoiding eye contact with him "Jon there's nothing bothering me" I lied again.

"Look at me and say that" Jon said pushing his weight off the wall, I look over seeing him walking over to me stopping a step or two away from me.

I shook my head at him "I'm alright, nothing is bothering me now just leave" I said looking him in the eyes fighting this urge to cup his face and kiss his lips.

"I will but firstly be honest with me" Jon said looking me in the eyes.

I shifted nervously again on my feet shaking my head "I can't say" I sighed.

"Why not?" He asked.

"Because it's wrong i shouldn't of felt that" I said cupping my face in my hands "seeing that scene" I shook my head lowering my hands from my face.

"It's okay" Jon said stepping forward going to touch me but I quickly stepped backwards from him.

"Just don't!" I said firmly "you need to go" I said fighting every feeling and urges in my body that was screaming to come to the surface "we can't do this not to them"

"I know that, but" Jon goes to say something but I hold my hand up stopping him before pointing to the door.

I watch Jon turn leaving the my trailer and I breath out I then realized that I had been holding my breath, I sit down trying to get rid of this knot that I had in the pit of my stomach, it soon unraveled and out came the tears.