The affair

Twelve

I arrive at work the next day and do the normal routine of wardrobe makeup I then sat in my trailer reading over lines drinking my coffee.

The previous day with Ella had got me thinking over that I should make a bigger effort with Caleb when he gets back from Tokyo but I then thought of Jon, I loved him and the thought of sleeping and being intermit with Caleb felt wrong.

It then grasped on me that I never truly loved Caleb because if I did I'd never of started an affair with Jon and fell in love with another man.

My trailer door opens and in walked Jon who stood there with a busted face.

"Makeup done a good'un on you" I said looking up from my lines before looking back down trying to avoid eye contact with Jon,

"You have avoided me since yesterday morning, my calls my texts I even dm'd you through Twitter"

"Sorry, been busy" I replied not looking up at him.

"I thought you would of messaged told me how lunch went" he replied.

"Well like I told you she knows" I said not looking at him.

"What about us?" Jon asked I shook my head.

"No not us, she just thinks your screwing some tart." I said looking up at him as he stood looking down at me.

"So what did you say?" Jon asked me

"I told her that she had nothing to worry about, that you loved her and that she's all you talk about" I said standing up "I even said I will babysit so you both can spend some time together" a wave of sickness flooded me as i said that.

"I don't love her though, I love you" Jon said pulling me into him looking me in the eyes.

I got out his grip stepping backwards from him "I love you, but like you said till we ready to come out we gotta play a game"

"So when Caleb's back are you going to play this game, you going to sleep with him?" Jon asked me his voice firm as he said it.

I shrugged my shoulders not knowing as I knew how I truly felt about Caleb

"Libby answer me?!" Jon said demanding to know.

"I don't know, that's all I can say"

"You must know if your going to sleep with him or not"

"I don't because I'm thinking of ending it with him" I explained looking Jon in the eyes.

"You serious?" Jon smiled I nodded my head at him "why?"

"Because I realized why it was so easy for me to sleep with you and not question it once, because I don't love Caleb." I responded.

"So what we gonna do?" Jon asked me as he pulled me into him I stood there cuddled into his chest listening to his heartbeat which I found so comforting.

"Well for now, we will just carry on like this, you go on date night with Ella even though the thought is killing me, and we will just play it day by day" I said cuddling further into Jon who leans down kissing the top of my head.

Just then the door opens causing me to spin round in a panic seeing Norman sticking his head in.

"Oh sorry to interrupt but we needed on set" Norman said as he stared at us.

"Okay dude be there in five" Jon said as I stood there wondering why he was acting so cool about what Norman had just witnessed.

Norman leaves us and I turn around looking at Jon confused.

"He knows" Jon said before I could even get a word out.

"You what? How?" I asked worriedly.

"I needed an alibi for the other night.. I had to tell him"

"What did he say?" I asked.

"He was shocked but I explained that it's more than just some fling, he thinks we should come clean"

"His right we should, I'm fed up with this sneaking around" I said walking over to the door.

"I know I am to but it's not for much longer" Jon said following me out the trailer.

Three days later I had had the joys of babysitting Jon and Ella's kids why they went out on there evening out, sitting there at there place knowing there was out together spending time with each other with Ella doing what I suggested so she could try and save her marriage made me feel sick to the stomach.

I'm sitting at home the next day when I hear keys in the door I turn around seeing Caleb walk in dropping his bags kicking the door closed.

"Hi there" i said looking at him from over the couch he walks in kissing me on lips "I wasn't expecting you for another two days" I said kneeling up on the couch looking over at him.

"Yeah I come back early" he said brushing my hair out my eyes leaning down kissing me again pulling me into him his hands run down my body touching my and squeezing my bum and I immediately freeze.

"What's wrong?" Caleb asked pulling away looking at me.

"Oh nothing, I'm just not in the mood" I lied knowing if it was Jon I'd literally be ripping his clothes of about now.

"I thought you would be up for it, as it's been weeks" Caleb said sounding disappointed.

"I'm sorry" I said getting up walking around the couch trying to get away but Caleb stops me by walking in front of me.

"Come on Libby I know something is bothering you, now what is it?" Caleb asked me.

"It's nothing I'm glad your home" I smiled passing him.

"Well actually we need to talk about that" Caleb said to me.

"Not now Caleb" I said brushing him off heading up stairs.

Later that afternoon I was in the kitchen making a sandwich when Caleb walks up behind wrapping his arms around me which immediately caused me to freeze again, Caleb picked up on it causing him to step back.

"Right, what the hell has gotten into you?" He demanded to know.

I sighed out turning to look at him "you really wanna know?" I asked him.

"Well yeah clearly, as I feel like I'm walking on eggshells with you at the moment" Caleb said.

"I just don't want you touching me"

"Well that was blunt" Caleb replied in a sigh.

"I'm sorry but that's how I feel" I said running my hand through my hair.

"Can I ask why?"

"You can but I'm not sure your gonna like my answer" I muttered looking down.

"Well tell me I need to know either way"

"Okay, you being gone, I realized that I'm not in love with you anymore" I said as I watched his face drop to the floor.

"Your joking, right?" Caleb asked me.

I shook my head at him "I told you that you wasn't going to like what I had to say"

"Jesus Libby, what the hells changed, I left and everything was okay, I come back and you have totally changed. Is there someone else?"

I look at him for a second before shaking my head "no, there's no one else" I lied.

"So what's changed?" Caleb asked me.

"Just me, my feelings for you have changed" I said calmly though this whole conversation was killing me inside.

"Well this has made what I needed to say to you a whole lot easier" Caleb said to me leaning back on the kitchen counter.

"What's that then?" I asked him.

"I got offered a job with the company I went to in Tokyo, i had till tomorrow to give them a definite answer, looks like I'm taking it as there's nothing keeping me here in Georgia now" he said walking out the kitchen.