Until The End // Phan

Chapter 16

*Phil's Pov*

"No, please!" I heard Alex scream in fear. I jolted up, throwing Dan's arms off of me. As soon as he felt my actions, he sat up as well.

"Stay where you are!" A man yelled at me, pointing a gun in my face.

"We don't have anything, I swear!" I yelled in defense. "Search the house!"

Dan stood up next to me, putting his hands up in front of him.

"Look, nobody has to get hurt here. We'll give you whatever you want if we have it-" "I said don't move!"

Before I even registered what was happening, a gunshot rang loudly in my ears. I looked to my left and saw Dan laying on the ground next to me, completely still, blood flowing from a hole in his shirt.

"NO!" I screamed at the top of my lungs. Without thinking, I stood up and smacked the gun out of the man's hand and punched him in the face, hard.

I was about to abuse him more before he fell to the ground, just as Dan did, blood gushing from his head, puddling around him. My ears were ringing louder than ever.

I looked over at Alex who had the gun in her hands, still pointed at where the man was standing.

It felt like everything went in slow motion, but at the same time, it felt as if it all happened in a split second.

I was now knelt next to Dan, my hands over his chest.

"Dan!" I yelled over and over. His eyes wouldn't open. Alex knelt down on the other side of him and put two fingers on his wrist. After a minute, she put them on his neck. She looked at me and shook her head.

"I-i'm sorry, Phil. He-" I didn't let her finish before I broke into intense sobs.

This can't be happening. This isn't happening. Dan isn't dead. Dan is not dead. He promised me he wouldn't leave me! He promised he would be with me until the end! This isn't fair! No!

"Phil, I'm sorry but.." I looked up at Alex through my blurry visiøn. The tears wouldn't stop. No matter how much I wiped my eyes, the tears wouldn't stop.

"You.. you have to put him down. He'll turn if you don't. I can do it if you can't or-"

"G-Give me t-the knife" I choked out in between sobs.

Dan put the pocket knife on the table next to the couch before we went to sleep last night in case anybody needed to use it at some point.

Alex reached over and grabbed the switch blade, slowly handing it to me.

I don't remember what happened next. All I see when I try to remember it is tears. And screaming. And rocking back and forth. I just couldn't comprehend anything. It all happened so fast.

Dan is dead I remember thinking over and over. Dan Howell, danisnotonfire, my Dan- is dead. Dan is dead and he isn't coming back.

I replayed the words Dan said to me that night before we left our apartment.

"We can get through this. We have eachother. I won't leave you. I'll always be right here, right by your side. You'll always have me, until the end."

He didn't get through this. I don't have him anymore. He left me. He's not here anymore. It's the end.

~

Alex and I buried Dan and Bobby in the yard behind the house we stayed in. We burned the body of the man who shot Dan. He didn't deserve to have a proper burial. I spent half the day digging holes for them while Alex covered me in case there were any walkers.

After we took care of the bodies, we decided to keep driving. We weren't sure where, but we drove. Along the way, we found a police station. We broke into it and found their arsenal of guns. We filled a bag with a few guns and a lot of ammunition.

We kept going.

I didn't want to do it without Dan, but I thought about it a lot.

I'm not going to keep going without Dan. I'm going to keep going for Dan. He doesn't want me to give up. He wants me to survive. He wants me to beat this world.

So no, it's not really the end. Dan may be gone, but even when I'm completely alone, all on my own- it is not the end.

Dan may have broken his promise, but I'm not breaking mine.

I promise that I'm going to live for Dan. I promise that I won't let this world take me down. I promise that I will make it- until the end.