Foolish love

Chap20.

Breathe..I can do this

I was away for a couple of months but that felt like years. I pulled the sleeve of my jacket,trying my best to breathe calmly. I scanned the airport terminal, its been 15 mins since i landed and im ready regretting this. The last time i been here, there was only one thought in my mind and that was running away. I wanted to hide my feelings and never look back. I thought it was that simple. Pack a bag, spent all my life savings on an airline ticket. But i had forgotten life doesn't go the way you plan it to be. I wanted to come home, completely fixed. I wanted to forget, instead i just took all my problems along with me. When i brought that airline ticket, i didnt know i was going to meet Jinyoung, i didnt know i was going to see Jungkook after all these years, i didnt know i was going to feel happy and alive again. I look back and see that broken girl trying to run away but instead she ran into another misery.

I stood and waited for my bag, i dazed at the amount of people standing around doing the same thing. They all looked so different, each filled with their own crazy story. Businessmen in suits and tie, families gathered around. Parents trying to contain their children excitement. I smiled at myself when i saw a married couple holding each other tight while thier little girl sits on the luggage carrier. They looked so happy. I never believed in marriage, Always thought it ruin the spark in relationships, being bound together for the rest for their life didnt feel so exciting. The thought of my parents came to my mine. They never stayed in love. They both grew tired of each other routines. I was 14 when they got divorce. The first few years were tough, my parents had jobs here, my dad wanted to move back to Korea but no one was offering a stable job back at home, So night after night, yelling and arguments were all i heard.

"Mom?" I smiled hugely when i saw my mom at the entrance of the airport. She hasn't change, i think she wore the same purple shirt when i left. I ran as fast as i could, i jumped into her arms and let her warm hug embrace me.

"Honey!! I missed you so much!" She yells into my ear

"I missed you mom" I Chuckled, her arms never left me.

"Lets get you home my dear" She smiles sweetly at me, she puts her arm around my shoulder and leads towards her car. The car ride was filled with endless talks of my life in Korea. I didnt tell her about Jinyoung yet, but im dying to. She would really like him. I catch myself smiling whenever his name pops up in my head. I think about his gentle smile, his charming eyes, his adorable laugh that he hides away when he smiles. The thought of Jinyoung made me less anxious. It made me less scared of being back here.

"Have you heard from Jason?" My mom asks as she pulls into a very familiar street. I felt my heart sank to the bottom of my stomach. I havent heard his name out loud since that day .. that day where all hell broke loose

"No ... I havent talked to him since i left" I quickly answered. I stared of the window , refusing any eye contact with my mom.

"What happen between you two? You guys were inseparable."

I plainly fake a smile trying my best to hide the fact i was slowing breaking on the inside.

"Nothing lasts mom" I bluntly let out. I wanted to end the conversation quick before she really hits me in the spot.

Before my mom could asks anymore questions, we reached home. The sight of the house infront of me made so much fond memories rush back . It was beach house, right behind it was the open sea.Right when my Dad left to live in Korea, My mom brought this house from lovely old couple who have been living here for years.