Foolish love

Chap23.

I've been lying in bed thinking about the events that had just unfolded a couple hours ago. Jason kissing me. Me trying to explain to my mom that i needed to get home.

I saw the change in her expression when i used the word "Home". My heart sank when i realised what that might have meant to my mom. But i knew i did not belong here anymore. I came here because i didnt have a choice. After years of hopping from one house to another, having no say on where we were living or where we moved to. I finally found the one place i really wanted to stay. A place i can call home. 

It feels as though i've stop running away.  Now i feel like Im finally running towards something.

After hours with debating with my mom, she finally booked me a flight back to Korea. But not without promising her that i'll back for her wedding day.

"You promise? I know the news was all too sudden but i would really like for my daughter to be there on my wedding day."  She said while hugging me. Those words felt so foreign to me but  I could feel the desperation in her voice. 

"Of course mom, I'll even try to bring dad."

She smiled widely and hugged me once more.

Right before i went through the gates, I looked back at her and saw the sadness in her eyes.

"Phil's a great guy mom. Dont worry about me okay? I love you." I turned back and left.

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I unlocked the door to the house knowing that no one would be at home.  I called my dad earlier to see if he would pick me up but due to his busy schedule at work, I just took the cab home. I tried calling Jinyoung once i landed but the calls couldnt get through.

I took my luggage to my room and left it at the corner. I looked at my clock 3.51pm. Its still afternoon and my dad wont be home till 7pm. I laid on my bed and let the exhaustion from the long flight take over.

I woke up when I heard the front door unlock. I looked at my clock again.

Exactly 7pm.

I grabbed my phome from my bedside table expecting to see missed calls from Jinyoung. But instead  there was nothing. Maybe he didnt get my calls? Or messages? But .. he always answers back. I tried not to think about it so much and went to greet my Dad.

He was smiling cheek to cheek from seeing me. He embraced me in his arms and helped me cook dinner.

The night was quiet. Nothing much happened, just me waiting by the phone for Jinyoung to call me back. As the the clock continued to tick, the more uneasy i became about his absence.

-

Few days pass and yet nothing from Jinyoung. I met Jungkook to have lunch yesterday. He was glad I decided to stay here permanantly. A day out with Jungkook was what i needed but with Jinyoung's sudden dissapearance, it made the last few days unbearable.  Jungkook told me not to worried, said that he was probably just really busy promoting his new album with GOT7.

Maybe...

But i cant shake this feeling. This feeling that something terrible is about to happen. It sits quietly at the bottom of my stomach and it haunts me throughout the day.

His absence became more overwhelming day by day.

Every time I call him, its was just endless ringing. Sometimes i wait .. wait until the voicemail machine picks up. But sometimes it so frustrating that i hang up after a few seconds. 

Where is he?

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Two weeks pass. A whole 14 days went by and still no word from Jinyoung.