Foolish love

chap25.

In the mist of playing Mario Kart -

I paused the game and looked down. My hands were trembling.

Jungkook immediately looked me.

I held my breathe and calmed my heart for i knew what i was about to say.

"I had a boyfriend back home-" I paused  and tried to swallow this lump in my throat. My throat just continued to tighten as the words slowly slip out my mouth.

"His name was Jason." I continued

I could feel Jungkook's gaze on me but i refused to look at him.

"He was beyond handsome and like all beginnings of a relationship he was kind, sweet, charming." My voice was slow as if i was reading from a book. My book.

"But as time past, he became terribly cruel towards me." I sighed "So I ran away and came here."

"I thought being here would get rid of the pain, but it just made it worse. For i was both homesick and shattered. But you have to understand, no matter how much he hurt me, I really thought he loved me, I believed what we had was real. So you can imagine how i felt when he cheated on me and everyone at school actually took his side"

I could feel Jungkook getting tense next to me.

" It broke a part of me... I thought the pain would never go away, I never felt so lost."

"Until I met Jinyoung." A smile crept up on my face.

"And god did he change everything."

"But I refused to fall in love with him. I tried so hard to push him away. I was scared you see, i felt unwanted. Ugly. Never truly good enough. How could i let this boy fall for a broken girl like me? Even worse how could we be together without the world going against it. It was absolutely foolish!-

"But of course he didnt listen, and wreck open the door." My breathing got harder.

"The closer i got to him, the pain slowly went away on its own. He made me smile again, laugh again, and just by hearing his voice made me never want to live another day without hearing it" I could feel the silent tears running down my face.

I paused-

"I thought i could not love anyone more than I loved Jason."

"But I was wrong"

"He didnt just make me feel safe-  My hands found their way to sliver necklace around my neck.

"He gave me hope." I closed my eyes shut, trying to recollect myself again.

" I shouldnt have gone back.. if i stayed and told him how i felt" My tears just kept flowing

"Now he's gone... he's gone Jungkook" My voice cracked before finishing the sentence. Jungkook went to my side and let me bury my face in his arms. Letting me cry my eyes out.

" I didnt know how much he meant to you Y/N," He hugged me tighter

"Im so sorry" I knew there was no pointing fighting the tears or the pain. So i let both go.

-

Fast forward a week-

Tomorrow was my mom's wedding. I just landed at airport. Jungkook and my dad sent me off.  I didnt want to say goodbye because i never felt this uneasy about my future before. There was nothing left for me on both sides.

As I was walking to baggage claim until I heard a familiar noise.

Girls screaming.

I stood rooted the ground. This cannot be. Please let it not be.

"Daebak! GOT7 just arrived!"

My heart quickened and i immediately  started panicing. When i saw my luggage, i dash towards it, and ran away from the screaming. I knew if i walked the other way they would never see me. What were they even doing here??

I kept my head down and walked cautiously towards the exit. Until-

"Pssst, Y/N"

That voice.. its not Jinyoung's but-

I turned around and saw unexpected face.

Mark.

He was wearing a mask and a cap just like Jinyoung went we first met.

"Mark? What are you doing hiding behind the pillar?" Of course i knew but i didnt know what else to ask him

"Look, I dont have much time. Just- meet me here later today okay?" He passed me a piece of paper. I took a glance at it and saw an address.

"I dont know Mark.. " I trailed off

"Please, theres something i need to tell you, something maybe even you already know." His eyes was staring right me as if i knew what he was talking about. I knew he didnt had long, and the chance of seeing Jinyoung ... i cant see him.  So i just nodded my head.

He nodded back at me and dissapeared before i could ask him anymore questions.

I raced towards the taxi stand and got in the cab. I told my mom that i would go to the house by myself since i know she will be busy with getting things ready for her wedding.

Once i was in the cab, i looked at the piece of paper Mark gave me. And trust me, Mark was the last person i thought would come see me.

The address wasnt familiar so I looked it up online, turns out its a cafe. Out of all places why a cafe? Why this Cafe?

The big question remained. Would i go? I might not even have the time But i have so many questions.

How did Mark knew i'll be here today? Why does he want to see me? What did he might by "something i already know"?

Whatever it is ... I knew in my gut my answer.