Foolish love

Chap4.

"Your not good enough"

"You are Ugly"

"You are weird"

"Get away from me!"

He pushed me to the wall and left me there. Tears keep streaming from my eyes, i grabbed my chest and tried to take deep breaths, but nothing was working. All i could feel was the cold floor against my legs. I looked up, theres was a mirror. I stared at it, looking at my reflection. I scanned myself from toe to head. All i could see was my flaws.

I'll never be good enough.

i'll never be good enough.

i'll never be good enough.

I suddenly heard a soft footsteps coming my way,

"STOP GET AWAY FROM ME!"

I screamed, no one can see me like this. But the footsteps became louder and louder. Please go away, please. I suddenly felt two strongs hands on me, I jumped!

"BRR-"

I woke up in a shock, I sat up and looked at my surroundings, My heart beating fast, tears were kept coming down my eyes, I was in my room, i am safe, i am fine. It was dream.
I cupped my face with my hands and hold my chest. I took deep breaths to calm myself. Its working. I hate nightmares. I looked at my clock

6.20am

Ughhhh i hate woking up early. I laid back on my bed. Noo, i need to get up. I switched off my alarm and i dragged myself out of bed, and quickly took a fast shower. Shud i eat breakfast? Maybe not, i can wait until break.

7.00am

"YA JAGIYA"

I heard Jungkook scream outside my house. I softly laughed to myself. He always use to call me that when we were young, at first he was just doing it to tease me but now it has became his habit. I grabbed my bag and closed the door gently so i wont wake up my dad from sleeping. Right before i let go of the door knob, i closed my eyes and took a deep breathe. Its gonna be a good day. Jungkook was standing infront my house with two breads in his hands.

"Here" He passed my one of the bread

"I know u wont eat breakfast, so i had ours prepared"

He still remembered. We ate our simple breakfast and walked to school. Jungkook ran over the classes that i was taking and keep reminding how happy he was to have me back.

"Are u Miss Y/N?"

A middle-aged women asked me, i nodded my head and bowed to her. She smiled gently and guided me to the Office. I waved Jungkook goodbye and followed the teacher. Once we reached the office, she gave me my class timetable and assured me that schooling here would be a great experience. I guess she saw how nervous i was.. She guided me to the my first class, she knocked on the door and wished me luck. I took a deep breathe, i can do it.

"Class, we have a new student joining us, Her name is Y/N, please take good care of her"

I bowed at the teacher and walked to the empty seat at the corner, I scanned the room to see if Jungkook was in my class, guess not. The first class was English, The other classes were maths, Korean and PE, etc. It was a good thing i had breakfast as break was at 10am. I had class with Jungkook before break, and we sat with each other during then. Alot of girls were staring at me, all figuring out who i was, i guess Jungkook is famous now.

"AHHHH JINYOUNG CAME TO SCHOOL TODAY!!!"

I heard some girls screaming and before i know it half of the canteen was empty. Jungkook laughed and told me to get use to it. He explained that there was an idol who came to our school and he gets this kind of reactions everytime he enters. Jungkook said he is actually a great guy and that he was our age. Thats interesting, a idol in our school. Wonder what he looks like. But that name.. why does it sound so familiar? I stopped thinking about it as i just couldnt figure out why it was so familiar.

In Maths class

This was the last class of the day, gosh was i tired but it wasnt bad, i actually had a good ... My phone started vibrating in my bag. Shit. I didnt turn it off

-Do not answer-

Oh no.. why is he calling me?!

Did he find out i had moved??

I thought he wanted nothing to do with me! My heart was pounding. No I cant answer it, but the urge to hear his voice.. No stop it Y/N, you hate him!  how I wished I did.. I raised my hand and asked to be excused. I took my bag along and ran into a storage room.
I hesitantly answered the call

"Y/N?"

His voice, why do i miss it, i shouldnt. I cant.

"What do you want, why are u calling me?"

I wanted to act tough.I cant show him that i was on the verge of breaking down.

"WHERE DID YOU GO? I WENT TO YOUR HOUSE AND UR MOM SAID YOU MOVED?! HOW COULD U DO THIS ME?"

I couldnt believe what he was saying. I was boiling up with anger.

HOW COULD I DO THIS TO HIM?

WHAT RIGHT DOES HE HAVE TO SAY THAT? AFTER WHAT HE DID?

"Why do you even care?! Havent you hurt me enough? Just go to her and leave me be!"

I shouted back, I needed to stand up for myself!

He keep quiet.

"I miss you..... Im really sorry, i promise you i'll never do that to do you again I'LL CHANGE I PROMISE, I take back my words, I wont hurt you again, she means nothing to me, come home to me, come home please, i love you so much"

I closes my eyes, i could feel tears brimming up in my eyes. Those words, he said it before ... more than once, I want to believe him but i know he will never change.

"Dont call me again"

I hung up the phone and laid on the floor. First day of school and im already crying on the floor. I hate him, i hate this, why cant i let him go, why did i love him & why do i still love him. Im so stupid. I looked at my phone

-10 missed calls-

No way am i picking them up again. I needed to get out of here. I walked out of the room, checking to see if anyone saw me. I quickly took out my phone to text Jungkook i was going to go home early.

"OUCH"

Shit not this again. I looked up at the person who i had bumped into.

Wait a minute..... Jinyoung?