I Need You

twelve

I don't want to be away. But I need to. I'll miss her.

Today was the day of after my birthday. Everything is peaceful. But boring. Chris was not with me. He has to go to the practice for the season's sports events that I don't know what is it called. He is texting me though everytime he has time. He still make time for me though. So Chloe is not here in the school. She's sick. Poor Chloe. So I am basically alone. I don't have friends other than Chloe.

So I am going to the library alone. To get some books for my exam tomorrow. It's gonna be Maths. So I need to study hard. I walk in to the library. And I am so afraid of something. What if Dylan's here. What if he's hear and I am alone. Hmm I just gather all my braveness in one place and tried to get it together. I walk in and go to the shelves. Until my wrist is grabbed and I look at who is it. It's Dylan.

"Did I really scare you that bad?" He said and let go of my wrist. He look at me with regret in his face.

"I must have been so bad. I'm so sorry. I'm such a shit saying things like that to you. But really I liked you so much." I just breathe in and look what happened to us.

"I was so crazy about you and now I just let you go and be with that asshole boyfriend of yours. No offense but really, I hate him. Because he got you." I just glare at him a little bit.

"I know it's your birthday yesterday. I'm the one who's always there for you last year. Now you're in another level." He said and I just felt guilty about it.

"I don't know but. Do you remember me taking you to some frozen yogurt store just to celebrate your birthday?" He ask and I just feel bad. But I still kept my mouth shut.

"Happy Birthday Van. I miss you." He said and hand me a box. I feel so bad about everything I did to him.

"Really you don't need to give me something." I said

"But I insist. Please open it." So I got it and try to open it. I was so afraid of what this could be. As long as I opened it. I can't help myself but smile at the sight of a lighter. With a NIRVANA written in it.

"This is so beautiful. Thank you." I said and hug him quickly. He smile and I give it a try. Just let a light go. And I turn it off and keep it inside my pocket.

"You know we can always be friends right?" I ask and he just laugh.

"Hahaha don't joke like that Van. Do you think your boyfriend will ever allow you?" He said and I just think about it. Then the bell rang.

"Oh that's the bell for my next class. See you around" I said and he just wave bye. I walk away and feel bad about our friendship.

- the end of the day -

I walk to the parking lot to meet Chris. When I got there I can see him with a worry face by his car. When I was finally in front of him. He suddenly carry and made me seat the the bumper of his car. I just laugh and he still he looks sad or whatever. When he is sitting now next to me. I caress his shoulder and kiss his cheeks.

"What's the problem love?" I ask and he just look at me. Hold my hand and kiss them.

"I don't know how to tell you this. But I'm going away. It's about my basketball career." In that words of him. My smile suddenly face into awe. I can't believe it he's going away. I am so used to having him around me. Having him away from me will be a disaster. But I think about him. His dreams. I have no choice but let him go.

"How long will it be?" I said look at him while he look into my hands. I can feel the worries in him. I can't believe it. Seeing him down is making me feel bad.

"3 months." He said and I just want to make him smile. Maybe it's my time to make him smile. So I reach for his chin and make him look into my eyes. I smile and kiss his nose.

"Smile for me Chris. Don't be so sad about the fact your going away for like 3 months. What if you're gonna an official player of NBA, it will be longer baby. Stay strong okay. I love you and this is just gonna be challenge for us. And I know we will slam it! Hahaha" I said and there he is smiling and kiss my lips.

"I love you." Is the only thing he said