NCIS ~ I Will Love You Thru Everything

chap. 12

Ziva slowly drove home from Tony's. Almost all of the street-lights were on and she realized she had been daydreaming so much that she didnt even know what time it was!

She checked the dash-clock - "that can't be right," she thought. It couldn't possibly be 3:00 in the morning! Ziva doublechecked the time on her phone and was surprised to see it actually was 3:00. Ziva was stunned - she never meant to stay at Tony's that long! She stopped at a stoplight, her mind drifting back to earlier...

(earlier)

Tony kissed Ziva and held her gently. "Tony?.."Ziva murmured. "Yes love?" he asked. Ziva paused for a second, not really sure how to phrase what she needed to say. English was so confusing sometimes. "Why are you so gentle with me? I can feel you stopping yourself from holding me any tighter, Tony. I can feel it.."she said.  Tony's hold on her did tighten slightly, but it still wasn't enough for Ziva. "Ziva..I don't want to hurt you. I can get...carried away sometimes." he explained. Ziva's forehead wrinkled in confusion. "I'm not exactly breakable, Tony" she whispered.

Tony held her head to his chest. "We have all the time in the world, Zi..I cant disrespect you by taking advantage of this, of our emotions. We're so caught up in this right now I think I would do anything! But we need to be sensible, too.."he gently added. "I don't know how much you're comfortable with," he also said. Ziva's face looked relieved. She wasn't ready to tell Tony she loved him and she was so relieved that he didn't pressure her.

Almost as if he read her mind, Tony said gently, "I'll never try to pressure you Zi, or do anything you're not ready for. For you, I'll wait an eternity." He gently reached and cupped her face in his hands. Ziva's heart filled with so many emotions she didn't know what to do...

(back to present)

Honkkkk!!! Ziva abruptly snapped back to reality and realized the light was green and everyone was impatiently waiting for her to go. "Ziva, get a grip!" she mentally berated herself. She had never thought of herself as a girly person that got lost in daydreams, but Tony made her believe she could be.

As she unlocked her apartment and set her things down, Ziva sighed. She could imagine herself having a real home with Tony someday. Someday a looooongg time off, though. After all, Gibb's could not ever know about this. It broke her heart to know if she and Tony lasted, Gibbs would not forgive them. He would talk to them still, of course, but Gibbs would lose all trust in them. The father-daughter relationship would be gone.

As Ziva pondered these things, she brushed her teeth and then set her alarm. It was 4 a.m now and she had to be up at 5:45.

"work will be rough tomorrow with so little sleep," she thought. "i'll have to keep Tony awake as well. I wonder.." in the midst of her thoughts, Ziva drifted off to sleep....

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