One After The Other

What Is Love To You?

"What is love? Love takes many forms.

At first it's when you look at that person and you just think to yourself that you like them and you want to get to know them. No their not perfect but you're okay with that because there's something about them that pulls you in, maybe it's god or fate but I choose to believe that in a way your heart just know who you are going to love and who you're not. So when you do see that person you don't have to think to yourself, whether or not they are attractive or even a good person you just are pulled to them and you know they are someone you are going to like and even sometimes love.

Then you look forwards to seeing them in the hall or around town. You find any reason to talk to them cause you just wanna be around them, to see their smile or to hear their laugh. Whatever. But when you finally get to see them and talk to them, you're at a loss of words. Your stomach gets all tight, but it's also light and floaty, like at any moment you're going to run away and hide. You don't run though, you never do. Cause they makes you smile so much your cheeks start to hurt.

You start thinking about them 24/7, you imagine there with you all the time because you want them to be with you all the time, to share every moment and to have every memory. You start to smile so much all the time you don't even notice the pain, everyone else notices though. People start to think something's wrong with you but you just go on with your day. You end up talking about them all the time. Like kady's word vomit, in Mean Girls, you can't help the incessant need to talk about them but you don't want to stop anyways.

I suppose at this point you're In Love, how do you describe that? The only word that seems to come to mind is 'magical' it truly is magical, like you're on top of the world no sadness will come or at least affect you because that person is their to make you smile, to make you happy. All the stuff before, the weird, the bad,the scarey. Whatever was wrong or hiding in you is suddenly taken away from you and everything's alright now. You don't feel like a freak or alone or an outsider anymore they have taken all that away from you. It's okay to be happy.

When you're in love and you can be happy with that person, there's no more need to worry or to feel pain. You can finally just chill with that person and make stupid mad jokes, go on crazy, wild adventures, and just do stupid stuff. Your so happy you don't want to be without them for a second, you don't want to go to sleep or even leave the room. Cause that means leaving them for a moment and you don't want that.

Saddly you've reached your peeking point cause nothing last including love.

Sooner or later something will go wrong, they'll tear a hole in you, one you can't repair becoming nothing but endless pain. Once you have lost that person well it's even harder to keep them out of your head you start to feel like Toni Braxton asking them and yourself if they could unbreak your heart, but that could never really happen. People are like glass we break and we don't get fixed. You think about them all the time but this time you don't want to but you do think about them and about what if, how could they, how could I make it change, was it all a lie. Its never ending.

Once it really sets in that you can't be fixed and no one's going to unbreak your heart I think that's truly the worst time. You cry all the time, whether it's one single tear or you cry for hours and hours you still feel the pain of a thousands year every time, feeling like you will never stop and you will never be happy again without them. It's consent, you get used to the tears they become your lonely friends because they are the only other thing or person that knows your pain and sorrow. At some point though the feeling of loneliness and heartbreak is all you feel, and it is forever. All you want is for it to stop for the pain to end you want to be happy again. Love becomes pain, beautiful pain like a symphony.

And the very last part well i'm still not really sure how this really happens, but you come to terms with all this and you realize that love is supposed to make you feel good, when you're in love it feels good. But when you have finally have moved on and you're no longer in love with them, it's okay now and you can move on. I mean you will always love them you just aren't in love with them anymore. Well that's when you can go forwards and meet someone new and start the process all over again. So to answer your question in the simplest way, when you're in love its happiness, when you're no longer in love you feel pain, and then finally accept, that's love."