Cold Fury [DISCONTINUED]

3. Phase 1: Confirmation

How do you confirm someone's sexuality?

   That's the first thing that came to my mind as I initiated my plan. Do you just ask him? Or is that rude? Or do you have to wait till he comes out? That would take a long time. I mean, what if he never comes out? Then my life would be screwed (not that it already isn't, but you know what I mean).

   Now, whenever you're confused or are in any situation like this, there is only one person you can turn to; Google. And I did. As I surfed Google (is that even a phrase?), one suggestion stood out; come out first. Makes sense, right? If I came out first, Phil would get to know about my sexuality, and, if he isn't straight too, then he would probably come out to me, knowing for sure that I can be trusted. Maybe, just maybe, it would work. If it won't, then I'll have to ask him, at the right time.

   Nowthat I've sorted that out, it raises the next question; how do I come out? I've seen many youtubers come out by just making videos about it. But it's too direct. I want Phil to be curious, so that he'll confront me for sure. Just then, an idea clicked in my mind.

   I've been seeing a lot of YouTubers do the 'Roast Myself Challenge' where they basically just roast themselves (duh). I've always wanted to do that challenge. It would be fun. But unfortunately, no one ever tagged me (I'm so lonely. Everyone hates me. *cries*). But then I thought, "Fuck it, I'll tag myself. It's not like anyone's gonna stop me or something." And, in that roast, I would give a hint about my sexuality. I'm gonna say "First you had a crush on J Law, and now you like Evans P. What even is your sexuality?" That would surely put the Internet in a frenzy.

   So, I made the video, which took a hell lot of time. (Not only because it was hard, but because I had to film a video with Phil for Undertale, too.) And then I uploaded it. Most of you guys must have heard it by now, but if you haven't, then GO LISTEN TO IT RIGHT NOW. I DONT CARE IF IM COMPLIMENTING MYSELF, SO JUDGE ME ALL YOU WANT. BUT THAT MIXTAPE IS ON FIRE. UNLIKE ME. IM NOT ON FIRE. THATS WHY I HAVE NAMED MY CHANNEL DANISNOTONFIRE. AND IF YOU HAVEN'T, THEN SUBSCRIBE TO ME ALREADY. Oops. That was louder than it was supposed to be.

(A side note about my diss track: I would've gladly tagged Phil in it, but the reason I tagged Ryan Higa was because his name was rhyming with my last sentence. There, I said it. I had to put the truth out there).

   Anyway, as I predicted, there were already Tumblr posts showing that people were confused if I was coming out or not. My friends (Louise, Tyler, PJ etc) were all calling me and messaging me out of confusion. But I was waiting for Phil's reaction. He did come to me, after an hour or so, but it felt like centuries to me. Great. Now 'Centuries' by Fall Out Boy's stuck in my head. WHY!? Now I'm gonna struggle while writing (or typing?) this.

   "Hey, Dan? I wanna ask you something," said Phil, as he peeked into my room.
   "Sure, come in," I said. He came in and sat on my bed. And then, slightly, he smiled.
   "Did you just come out in your latest video?"
   "As a matter of fact, yes I did," I replied. "I'm actually bi."
   "Yep, saw that," he said. "Maybe I should do the same."
   "What?" I asked. My heart was racing. My plan was going so well!
   "Even I should come out, I guess. And I thought it would be best if I came out to you first, you know? I feel more comfortable."

   OMGS. HE'S GONNA DO IT. MY HEART. I DIDNT KNOW IF I COULD TAKE IT. I was screaming inside. Later did I realize that I was smiling like a psychopath, when I saw Phil's confused expression.
   "Why are you smiling?" he asked.
   "Nothing. I'm just really happy that your doing this. And I'll support you no matter what," I reply.

   He takes a deep breath. I take one, too, and hold it in. He opened his mouth. I waited. It was the longest I've ever waited. I was expecting my future to be bright and happy. To be with him, always. But the words he said next dropped out of his mouth like a couple of atomic bombs that destroyed my life:

"Im...aromantic."