I visited the very depths of the bottom again, the part where nothing no long exists. This time I fully understand what would occur.. and I still long for it.. I just want to disappear and make it easier for you. If I could only tell you how I feel. But I am not good at telling you how I feel.
I want the darkness to spread..I've got a bottle of blood waiting for me drown in. I am actually going to.. I don't know how to say goodbye...I understand there's no going back there's no..anything after it. But I know I will relieve stress from everyone's heart. I am truly sorry for wasting your time. I know you have others who are better for you, all of you. I don't know when, but I am thinking about the end. And this time I won't fail, like the failure my life has become. Someday I will, and you'll realize I'm gone and have that weight lifted off your chest, and I will be so glad to know I've finally pleased you.
I will tell you how much you mean to me and that I know she is a million ways better and I will simply float away so you don't have to worry and just go for your happiness. Once I have left you in this world.
