If I could say one word that could make everything okay, that could fill the empty hearts, the lonely sadness, the thing that keeps us from breathing a breath of relief. I would. If I could turn back time and rewrite the whole world's story, I would. I would give them all a chance to live a life filled with laughter, happiness, love, and promises that you didn't have to pray to be kept, ones you knew they would, because who would break a promise? I would give everyone the life they once thought was possible, the one that visits them in their sleep, and puts a smile on their hollowing sorrow filled faces. I want to give you something you could have never given yourself because you don't know how. I wish I had power so then I could use it, but darling the last person I would ever think of is myself. I'd give the school children pretty playgrounds with no discrimination, just a place where everyone came together and made those small little memories we remember, into large ones. To give the everyday things we take for granted to the people that don't attain them. To put a roof over the heads of the many that walk the lonely streets at night, though they never deserved to be. I want to take the stress off the backs of the elders the ones that work until they can no longer move. Give them a break to spend time with their children and watch them grow old with the trees surrounding their home. To take away illness to the ones that spend their whole lives suffering and show them what's it's like to really live without a sickness. Something I will never know. I am so sick of watching the lovely creatures of this world suffering in pain from the things that rip us into pieces daily. I want a chance to put a smile on the face of the ones that don't even remember what happiness feels like. I want them to someday visit that place they would all want to be and be able to hold onto it for not only a moment but for a lifetime.
If I ever get that chance I will undoubtingly oblige. For I am done with watching these tragedies. And I will take these things upon myself and make them now my own. I will suck the sorrow out of the souls of this earth and give the things they need most whether it is possible now or will not ever be. I will take my own pain and make it grow much larger, for I will have taken on all your troubles and the things you cannot change but want so willingly to. I will give you sweet dreams, so when 'goodnight' is spoken it will actually come to be. I can take on your monsters and I will take away those nightmares and make them my own. What will the difference be? I am already doomed to a forever silence in pain. Nights where I sit awake horrified of what I will see when I close my eyes again. What difference will several more and more make? None really. I can take away all your curses and make them rather a blessing.
For I have been deeper than six feet under and I know very well what hell looks like. And I will give anything to go down deeper just to see all of you rise up. Go up closer to heaven and not have it only be a thing you reach when you are dead and not able to actually really breathe in the air from the beauty that it will bring. Heaven won't only be something you get when you reached your demise but something you see the moment you open your eyes, no bores or empty silences. Only ones filled with beauty and comfort. Giving you a moment when you can actually live your life without being in vain.
Because darling I am the angel. I am the one that will take your demons away. I don't care if it brings upon more agony, I can take it. Because nothing will feel better than seeing you, actually with a smile upon your face. Whether it's with someone who isn't me, or and object that brings peace. I don't care what you need. I will give it to you. Because I want you to be happy. And I will do anything. Even if it means the death of me. I want you to be okay, just for once, and for infinity.
