A bucket of light and darkness

Your attention

I hate when you lie to me,

I hate when you say you've never lied to me,

I hate when you try to convince me who I'm supposed to be,

Even though I know that's only who you want me to look like,

So you don't feel like it's real.

I hate when you say it's okay,

I hate when you play on the lies and say that you will stay,

Because you won't;

You never do.

I hate when you make me believe your lies,

And you hate it when I throw them back at you,
and you suppose I will run and hide,

But I don't ever run;

I keep staying, even though you don't.

Do you see the difference?

No, you won't.

I hate it when you send me a message,

Because then I know the damage has been done,

And I will start talking to you again,

And somehow you will become my sun.

Although I were never any of your stars.

Still I love the why you make me feel when you give me your attention,

But then again I hate that I feel this way,

So at the end I just feel confusion,

Am I really meant to stay?