Chapter three: L

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My feelings for Lexi got stronger, but the end of the year was near. It was the second to last day of school, which really wasn't a learning day of school because we were practicing our graduation ceremony. When we were done, I went up to Lexi.
"Hey Lex. Uh what are you doing this summer?"
"Well the first two weeks I'm going on vacation with my old friends before I moved here in 8th grade. But I'm free the rest of the summer"
"Oh that's cool. When you get back we should totes hang out" totes?! Did you seriously just fucking say totes?
"Yeah that'd be cool." Her phone starts to ring.
"Oh, I'll be back, I gotta take this" after a few minutes she came back, looking disappointed.
"Are you okay?" I asked.
"Yeah, that was my ride home calling. He said he couldn't pick me up."
"Can't you drive?"
"Yeah but my dad said he would get me a car during the summer before I leave for my trip."
"Well, I could give you a ride.... I-if you want"
"Sure!" We walked to my car, and most of the ride was kinda awkward small talk. I tried to think of something to say.
"Soo... Do you have a girlfriend?"
"Nope, I'm single" I nodded and told her I was single too.
"Have you ever been in a relationship?"  My face turned red and I kept quiet.
"Oh, sorry! I didn't mean to-"
"It's okay. It was a long time a go." I pulled into her driveway and parked.
"It was a great relationship. We treated each other so well, and we showed our love for each other every second of everyday. I was so happy, until I was asked if I was ready to lose my virginity. I wasn't ready, and we got into a fight. During the fight, I confessed that the reason I didn't want to, was because I was questioning my sexuality. He freaked out, and I tried to explain to him that I didn't want to do anything until I know for sure, but he didn't listen. He threw me on the bed, and pinned me down. He put himself inside me, and.... And he never got... Caught." I've never been able to tell anyone that story, I never go into detail because it was so traumatizing. I noticed a tear go down my face so I immediately wiped it away.
"Whew! Sorry, that got depressing. Should you go ins-" she hugged me. My body became very warm, and I felt safe. I dug my head in her shoulder and I felt relief fly through my body.
"Would you like to come over for a while?"
"Yeah, anywhere is better than my house. Especially with you" oh my god.. Did I just. Flirt with her?
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She blushed, and so did I. We went inside, and I became super shy because her house is so nice and her parents are so cool and wealthy.
"You can loosen up, ya know."
"I know, sorry. It's just I'm not used to such a big house and your parents are super cool!" She giggled.
"C'mon, I'll show you to my room" her room was decorated with lights and posters, and it was a cute blue color. It was nice, and I softly sat on the bed.
"This is a cool room. I wish my room was like this."
"Oh, I'm sure your room is just as cool as you are!" She winked while saying that. My stomach flipped over, and my heart started beating fast. We started talking, and that turned into laughing our asses off and having a blast. But there was still one question that was killing me.
"Lexi, why were you hanging out with Elizabeth?"
She sighed
"Well, it was sophomore year, she noticed me and told me I had a nice taste in fashion, and that I should join her 'squad'. I never did, until she cornered me after school. She threatened me, and always did until I joined her clique. One time, I got sick of her threats, and she threatened me one last time saying she's going to give me bruises, and she did."
"Oh, I'm sorry Lexi. I should've guessed."
"It's okay, I shouldn't let it get to me. I'm just glad you got me out of there." We smiled at each other. After a few hours, we passed out. We woke up to her alarm, and freaked out.
She got dressed, and I borrowed her brush. I refused to borrow her clothes, but she finally forced it on me. She put me in a white crop top and black shorts, and I put my black choker on. I never really was the fashionable type, and I dress more on the butch side. Everyone looked at me, but it wasn't negative. Maybe I should dress like this a little more. I grabbed
My graduation cap and gown, and we practiced once more. I really wanted to hang out with Lexi, but she's going to be gone with her friends the first two weeks of school. I felt really sad, and I missed her already. After the last day I went to hang out with Melanie.
"I don't know what's wrong with me. And I feel those feelings everyday"
"Well, I gotta be honest with you, I think you're being stupid. I can't believe you haven't realized it yet!!"
"Realized wha-" it hit me. Oh my god, how could I have been so stupid?!
I love her.

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