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Chapter 10

                  

Chapter 10

The weekend has come and gone, still no word from Taylor. I wish I had her give me her number so I was the one calling and not sitting here wondering when the hell she would call me. Taylor seemed so sweet too, like she would actually call when the time came to it, and that we would get dinner together, but she never did.

I don't know why I have been so sensitive to the topic. Guys do it to women all the time, I've been guilty of it myself. But why does this time hurt so much? Maybe I had gotten my hopes up too high for a random girl I had met on campus. She could actually just be like her sister, coming and going whenever she feels like it.

Maybe it's because I had gotten my hopes up for her, that she was actually going to call me, unlike her sister. I like the chase of Becca, that's why I'm so intruiged by her, but she is not someone I would really like to be in a relationship with.

I know, I know, I had said earlier that I didn't want to be in a relationship with anyone because of school and I didn't have time for it. But the twins are making me feel like I could be in a relationship. Well, I correct myself, Taylor is the one that makes me feel that way; correction again, made.

I could be jumping to conclusions here, with Taylor not calling me. She could have gotten busy and never had the chance. I know I do that with Rachel all the time. I say I will call her and never do because I'm stuck in my room studying. Taylor could have been doing the same thing; she's a journalist so she could have been following a story and never gotten around to it.

Oh, and I figured out that night why Rachel was so quick to change her mind about us being in a relationship. Her and Isaac went out on a few dates and I guess they both fancy each other. Which I like that Rachel was able to find someone that could take her out on dates and appreciate her the way I should have. That night her and Isaac went home together, leaving Matt alone here with me while we bitch about being single. Matt was the one to bitch, I just complained on how I haven't had sex in about a month. I could have, but I didn't tell him about that incident.

I really haven't told anyone about Becca running out on me. Possibly because I'm embarrassed that I turned down hot sex with a beautiful woman. Or possibly because I'm sad that Becca feels the need to only have sex with someone; denying a date or respect. Both situations make me feel something that I don't want to share. And I'm a man, we don't have feelings and we sure as hell don't talk about them. Matt and Isaac would give me shit for days if I spilled to them what had happened and how I feel about it.

Cool air comes from the bottom of the door to my room. I know I had left my window open and I also know I don't care enough to go in there and close it. The mornings are cold until the sun comes out to break up the snow and ice. Spring is probably my favorite time of year; in the UK to be specific. My sister and I would take the train over to Amsterdam every year to watch the tulips. We would ride down the canal in a rented river boat, watching everyone sit and smoke for days. After a weekend in Amsterdam, we'd head home to see mum baking more pies for Easter. Spring is when my family got the closest and there were no fights breaking out between lovers.

It makes me miss home, the melting snow and smell of grass. Makes me miss my mum and step-father. Gemma misses me, I know it. She calls every day during this time, showing me the followers out front of the house. I laugh when I see what new hair color she's added to her locks. It's the time of year I get home sick, every spring since I've been gone.

With working at the bar, I've been able to save up a solid amount of money for my mum and Gemma to fly over. I talked to Gemma a while back and we managed to get tickets for Mother's Day weekend. It'll be the first time I've seen my family in five years.