Silent Cuddle Buddy

Chapter 5- Pen and paper

Era Pov

It's been what?
3 weeks since Brent and I had talked.
No signs of him coming back.

I've already talked to Meg and asked her to get me another client, but she said that I have to wait for another week para mapawalang bisa ang exclusivity contract.

Nakalagay kasi sa kontrata na kailangan ng isang buwang hindi pagkikita, para masabing invalid na ito.

I'm at home right now.
Actually, I'm not really feeling well this past few days.

Nakahiga lang ako madalas.
Wala akong magawa kaya nag-open ako ng ig account.

I searched the names of those people I've been friends before.

Almost everyone migrated.

Halos lahat sila, may kaniya-kaniyang pamilya na. Karamihan may mga anak na.

Napangisi nalang ako.

They looked so happy.
And contented.

F#ck them.
How could they?
They don't deserve to be happy.

Bitter?

Yeah.maybe.
No not maybe.
I really am.
Bitter.

Bitter to those bitches.
Bitter to those leeches.
Bitter to that as$hole.

I want them crashed.
I want them to suffer.
I want them to learn how it feels to be humiliated and belittled.

But I can't do anything...
I know that taking revenge is wrong.
It's absolutely wrong.
Even thinking about it isn't right at all.
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I don't believe in love at first sight.
Also don't believe in what other's say, Love is Blind.

True love?
That's totally insane.
Neither do I believe, that there is still "forever" in life.
In short, I. DON'T. BELIEVE. IN. LOVE.

Sa panahon ngayon, naniniwala akong walang forever.

Wala nang totoong tao, yun bang mga taong honest.
Well, mangilan ngilan nalang siguro.
Halos lahat na ata plastik.
Okay pag kaharap ka, pero pagtalikod mo, bigla ka nalang susunggaban at sasaksakin sa likod ng paulit-ulit.

Grabe noh?
Grabe much!
Mga walang patawad!

At alam mo ba kung sinu-sinong gusto nilang biktimahin?
Yung mga taong inosente at madaling mapaniwala.
Yung mga taong uto-uto; na pakitaan lang ng kunting kabaitan, mabulaklak na salita at kung anu-ano pa, e basta basta nalang maniniwala.
Been there.
Been like that.
Been one of those guillible people na madaling napaniwala, naloko at nauto, kaya ngayon durog ang puso. (Anudaw?😅)

Kaya mula noon naging mapagmatyag na ako.

I never let my guard down.
Not even to people I know.

Kasi pag masyado kang nagtiwala,
Pag masyado kang umasa,
Ikaw lang din ang talo.
Ikaw lang din ang masasaktan.
Ikaw lang din ang mawawalan.
At pag nawasak ka't nagkaroon ng lamat, mahihirapan ka nang ibalik sa ayos ang lahat...

"Is that why, you started not talking a year ago?", napalingon ako bigla sa nagsalita sa aking likuran. Napatigil din ako sa pagtatype sa laptop.

"Paano ka nakapasok dito? Saka bakit ka nakikibasa ng tinatype?", napatuwid ako ng upo kama.

"I have my keys. And besides, is it my fault na sobrang seryoso mo diyan sa tinatype mo kaya di mo napansing nasa likuran mo ako?", sabi nito.

Nagulat ako, pero hindi na nagtanong.

"Anong kailangan ko? Simple lang ang sagot... it's you", inunahan na ako nito.

"I really don't know what happened to you in the past that made you so bitter and broke today, but I want you to know that I can make you happy. No scratch that, I'll make you happy.", lumuhod ito, at may kinuhang papel na nakatupi at ballpen sa bulsa...

"Sign this and marry me"

To be continued...