Is This Really What You Want? (Multiple Ship FanFic)

Vegas Lights (Brendon's POV)

Well, it had been about two days since Dallon arrived. Pete was supposed to come over tomorrow to discuss some things with us. What they were, I don't know because he never told us. Asshole. Anyway, you remember that time Ryan and I hooked up when we were drunk like hell? What people don't know is that we've actually hooked up multiple times after that... There was something about him that I loved and was drawn to. I don't know what it is. I feel bad that I keep cheating on Sarah, though... I really need to get my life in order here.

"You ok, Bren?" Ryan asked, snapping me back into reality.

"What? Oh, yeah," I said.

"Alright," he said as he smiled at me.

"I promise I am," I said.

"Good," he said as he intertwined our hands together.

I smiled at him and then cuddled up next to him. I loved doing that with him, and the best part of it was that he actually let me. Sarah wasn't always up for it, but I'm a cuddly person!

"Hey Brendon," Ryan said.

"Yes, my love?" I asked.

"Want to do something?" he asked.

"Like?" I asked.

"This," he said as he leaned in and kissed me.

I smiled through the kiss and kissed back harder. He gently lowered me onto the couch and pulled my shit off. He leaned back down again and kissed my neck. I let out a small moan because neck kissed had always, repeat always, been a turn on for me.

"You like that?" he asked.

"Hell yeah," I said.

I stopped him for a second and pulled his shirt off. I flipped him over and straddled him, like I normally did. I forcefully kissed him and ran my hands over his body, stopping at the bulge in his pants and rubbing it, which made his hips buck and him moan. After that, I slowly undid his pants and pulled them off, taking his underwear with them. He smiled at me and I kissed him again. I worked my way down to his chest, leaving little kisses everywhere, until I made it to his member. I closed my mouth around it and he let out a small whimper. I started to bob my head faster, which made him moan again. He ran his fingers through my hair and gripped it tightly. It hurt, but that only made me go faster and faster, which of course Ryan loved. I knew he was getting close, so I stopped. He just looked at me, breathing heavily. I smiled and kissed him, which seemed to do the trick. In all of the times we'd hooked up, I've only blown Ryan, never fucked him. He's only fucked me. Tonight, Ryan Ross is getting fucked. Hard.

I got up and undid my pants. God, I could not get them off fast enough! Once I finally got them off, I jumped back on the couch with Ryan, who had a petrified look on his face.

"Ryan, everything is going to be ok," I said. "I promise I'll stop if it hurts too bad."

"I-It hurts?" he asked.

"Well, it doesn't exactly feel the greatest the first time," I said.

"O-Oh," he said as he swallowed the lump in his throat.

"Look, if you don't want to do this, I won't," I said. "I don't want to force you to do it."

"No, I want to, it's just..." he mumbled.

"Just what?" I asked.

"I-I'm scared," he said.

"Baby, I know it's scary, but like I said, I'll stop if you can't handle it," I said as I kissed him.

"Thanks," he said as his expression softened.

"Now, are you ready?" I asked.

"Yeah," he said.

I kissed him once more and then made my way lower. I ran my hand against his leg and suddenly pushed a finger inside of him, which caught him off guard, but he seemed to be ok so far. So far. I stuck another finger inside and he cringed a little, but didn't object. I moved them back and fourth for a little bit and it seemed like Ryan was enjoying himself to be honest. Now came the fun part...

"You still want to do this?" I asked.

"Yes," he said.

"Alright," I said. "Just tell me to stop if it hurts too much."

"Ok," he said, becoming nervous again.

I kissed him again and took my position between his legs. I started to slide into him and he cringed in pain again. I went slower and he gripped the couch as tight as he could. God, I felt so bad. I was making Ryan hurt this bad... I slid in a little more and he put his hand on my stomach, so I stopped.

"God, Bren, it hurts so bad," he said.

"I know," I said. "I am so sorry."

"Just please," he said. "Just do it."

And so I did. I pushed myself the rest of the way in, which made Ryan whimper. I noticed a tear fall down his cheek. God, Brendon, you're an asshole.

"Ryan, I'm so sorry," I said.

"It's not your fault," he said as his expression softened again.

I smiled and leaned in and kissed him. He kissed back harder and I started thrusting into him faster, but not too fast. It must have started to feel good because Ryan broke our kiss and threw his head back and moaned. I smiled and went a little faster.

"Oh god," he moaned between breaths.

"Like this?" I asked.

"God," he moaned again. "Brendon."

He grabbed me and pulled me towards him. He kissed me with some ferocity, which I actually really liked. He held the back of my neck, while I was still thrusting into him, and was still breathing heavily. I reached my hand down and started jerking him off. He let out a louder moan, and this was the loudest one so far. He lost it and groaned as he came on my hand and his stomach. Well, that sent me over the edge and I pulled out and came.

"God," I whispered. "Ryan."

"Thank you Brendon," he said as he breathing returned to normal.

I smiled at him and fell into his arms. This shit really wears you out, just saying! We both wound up falling asleep in each others arms. I definitely needed the rest since tomorrow was a big day!

*A/N* Sorry this is the first time I'm updating today! I stopped writing this is study hall today because I didn't think it'd be appropriate to write on school wifi... on my chromebook... where they can track and look at everything I can do. So yeah, not a good idea! So I waited until I got home! Hope you like it!