Is This Really What You Want? (Multiple Ship FanFic)

Northern Downpour (Ryan's POV)

This can never happen again? I understand why, but didn't Dallon think about my feelings in all of this? I really like Dallon and I can't do anything about it! I know he's happy with Brendon, but I matter too. I know I sound really selfish, but come on. I slammed my phone down on the table in the living room and held my head in my hands.

A few minutes later, my mom walked in.

"Ryan? Are you ok?" she asked.

"No," I said through my tears. "I did something really stupid and I can't take it back."

"What happened?" she asked.

"I-I kissed Dallon," I admitted.

"You what?" she asked as she walked towards me.

"I kissed Dallon," I repeated.

"Why on Earth would you do that? That's disgusting," she said.

Ah, yes. My true homophobic mother comes out. This is just great.

"Mom, there's nothing wrong with someone liking the same sex," I said.

"What are you trying to say?" she asked.

"Mom, I'm gay, alright? You're just going to have to deal with it," I said.

"You're such a disappointment. I thought you were actually going to do something with your life," she said. "I want you out of this house by tomorrow. Do you hear me?"

"Oh, so just because you didn't know I was gay five minutes ago now changes how you love me?" I asked.

"How could I possibly love someone that's gay? It's repulsive," she said as she rolled her eyes.

"I'm still the same person!" I yelled.

"Don't you raise your voice at me!" she shouted as she slapped my face.

I was shocked out of my mind. My own mother just hit me.

"I am still the same person I was five minutes ago. You need to understand that. This is my life and I will do whatever I want. I don't need you and apparently you sure as hell don't need me. Maybe I should go where I know I'll be accepted. You knew Dallon was bi at least, so how come you were so nice to him?" I asked.

"I was nice to him because he was our guest. I was still disgusted," she said. "And you're right. I don't need you. Go pack your shit and get out."

"Fine," I said.

I ran up to my room and packed all of my clothes and personal items. Once I was done, which was about a half hour later, I walked back downstairs, glared at my mom, and walk out.

"And don't ever come back!" my mom shouted as she slammed the door.

I walked for about ten minutes before I finally couldn't take it and I just collapsed onto the sidewalk and cried. This was by far the worst day of my life. I still couldn't stop thinking about Dallon though. All I wanted was to be in his arms right now, but he probably didn't want to see me. I just kept walking after I had calmed down and finally fell asleep in a bus stand around one in the morning.