Love and Hurt

Shy

I am shy.

Does it define me?

Is it who I am?

Or is it just a shell covering me.

Can I cast it away and actually talk?

I did once, and now have a friend.

But can I do it again?

Maybe not show these people almost all of me, as I did with one.(but he was special)

But enough to make them my friends, to show them I can be one of them.

Can I laugh with them and maybe, for once in my life, be cool?

Or will trying this drown who I really am?

Will being "cool" destroy the real, honest part of me?

Will I still be what God wants of me?

I want this so badly, people I can talk to.

Someone to laugh with.

I know I have one, but he's not near me for now.

So I'll have to make my own friends while I wait for him, not relying on others to make friends and then incorporate me into their group.

Do something on my own, for once.

I want to stop being shy.

To show them that I am worth talking to.

Because I am.

I don't have to be shy anymore.