Lost In Your Love [ ON HOLD.]

9.

Chris||

Should I be worried? That is the question. The way Aubrey came up with a whole lie, and fast too! It was on spot. She told Tanya she'd rather not speak on the name until things are for certain between her and her crush and I wouldn't blame her.

Now what I would call between me and Aubrey? I wouldn't necessarily call it 'cheating'. Why use such a - a strong word? Technically me and Tanya aren't even together if you really think about it. You know how much times I broke up with ol' girl? She just keeps coming back. I'm shaking my head thinking about it as we speak.

I'm not really a fan of the cheating business, you know what I mean? I know that is all people see nowadays. Cheating all over the place. You never know if someone is being real with you, even when they try their hardest, You could  just feel it in yo' heart that one day they'll just up and leave like everybody else did, getting tired of all of the problems you may have.

Being cheated on by someone I've claimed to 'love' is something I'd never want in life. So why would I do it to someone else?  It's just something about her, you know?

Maybe it's just me but they way her mind is set up but I think she's just been dropped a couple'a times when she was a baby.

My mother has been calling me non-stop since I was at Calvin's house and I just kept ignoring her calls. You'd think that by now she'd get the hint that I want nothing to do with her.

I know , I know. Holding grudges aren't good, but it's something I cant control even If i try my best to forget about it.

It's like I can tell myself all the time that i forgive you. That everything is cool and how humans make mistakes but then I can see you physically and mentally all those hurt feelings will come back. That theory is directed towards my mother, Joyce. I've even admitted to her that I will never forgive her for the shit she pulled on me over the years she was hear with me, What is there to explain.

Don't get me wrong though, even though I hate her, I still care about her because at the end of the day she was the one to give birth to me. At the end of the day she was still there for me when my father wasn't. I love everybody, hell even though i claim to so called 'hate' Tanya, I still once upon a time loved her.

But like I said before. Once you come at me left, my whole perspective of you changes and shit just cannot and will not go back to the way it was. That's some real talk right there.

I pulled into the apartment lot and parked in the space with the apartment numbers on it before I got out the car. I made my way into the entrance before looking at the all the stairs I'd have to walk up. I groaned starting my journey.

I spotted Tion standing there on the 2nd floor holding sausages on sticks, a grocery bag full of Mangos, a large lack garbage bag, and a balloon. "Chris from the 4th floor!" he shouted, dapping me up.

"Tion from the 6th floor." I held up six fingers and he shook his head. "Nah mane, it's Tion from the sixth floor-" he held up two fingers. "- Use your common sense, Chris." I laughed.

"Yea, what was thinking." I looked at all the items he had for sale. "Tion what you doing? You got gifts for somebody or somethin'? Not tryna be nosy."