Letters to Dan

3 • A

Dear Dan,

I never realized that I would be this sad.

With Jon leaving I knew I could see him whenever I needed to, he wasn't that far away.

You leaving feels like you are on a different planet. You are with the stars and I'm still on earth.

The sadness just hit me like a wall.

I clicked on one of our old videos. I loved the way we interacted and laughed together. I hated the fact that that might never happen again.

You haven't been gone that long but I feel like it's already been years.

Your laugh is one of my favorite things about you. The way you tilted your head back sometimes, sometimes closing your eyes, sometimes falling over. I already ache with sadness that I can't laugh with you for hours everyday.

I don't have the emotional ability to write anymore today. I'm sorry for the tear spots on the paper, it's just hard remembering the fresh wound.

Don't worry about me
-Arin