It's not a sad story as much as it is, destructive. He's so much better than everyone else, a ten. All the other guys don't text you for a week and then they'll assume that you want them. But we never do, the usual. But him, he's so strange, I can never figure it out. He'll hang out with so many girls, then say he doesn't want any and be alone for a while. I don't get, it a guy like him could have so many things, he has everything going for him I don't get why he doesn't use it. But hey, you're not here for him right? Right? Goddamnit you are aren't you? Whatever I'll tell you about myself anyway because I have no regard for your personal preference. I'm not that popular, I mean people know me. I guess you could say that, you know I can make even the most high maintenance guy date down for me. Yeah I guess I'm like that, I use my power to my advantage, guys can't figure me out, neither can girls. I like both, what can I say I'm greedy. Don't get me wrong I'm not a shitty person on Tumblr, and my gender isn't an avocado. I guess I'm not that bad, I mean yeah my parents treat me like shit so I don't take it, I'm called rebellious because I stand up for myself and my self-worth. My mother tells me to be myself, but the night before she called me a tramp and told me I would never be good enough. It's almost comedic how hypocritical parents are these days, and also how shitty they can be. I heard his dad is abusive, it must be hard I know how it feels. I feel bad for him and his brother, his dad is such a nice guy and no one will never suspect a thing. Don't get me wrong, if he comes up to me with that issue I'll help them. But I'm not going out of my way, we all have our own shitty lives with our own shitty problems, most of which people can make fun of us for and tell us that other people have it a lot worse. But I don't think any problem is too small, or insignificant, I just don't have time to be stepping out of my way because I have my own to deal with. If we were together would be a different story, because you have to put effort in to help that other person. If there isn't an understanding between the two people then there is no relationship. If two people don't understand each-others problems and help them to work through them, then no one is in a real relationship. Because you can't fix someone or change them, no matter how much you want to or how much you try, no matter how much good you see under their tough layer of skin, nothing ever changes. You can't love someone out of a mental disorder, you can't kiss someone through their depression, you can never have sex with someone so many times that they will forget all about their crippling anxiety, that's not how it works. no matter how many people think that they have the power to change people, they're wrong. Because no one's ever tried to change them, no one's ever cared enough about them to tell them, "hey, don't do that." No one's ever taken the time.
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AN: wow okay hi guys XD I guess this is kind of a prologue meh. I have never wrote anything like this before I usually only write fanfiction or crappy little stories about mermaids or werewolves (both regrettable) but yea I hope you likes
~ Lolli the inexperienced writer
