Clarissa Snape [incomplete]

twenty-eight

— Miss Snape's Secret —

das a lotta cursing, Dally.

"Jesus fuck," I cursed.

I was simply using the restroom a couple days later when my Dark Mark started stinging like a bitch.

"Owie, owie, owie," I whispered, taking the polyjuice potion out of my robe wand pocket and chugging it.

"Holy shitballs, that hURTS!" I shouted as I quickly left for Malfoy Manor.

Upon landing, my mark stung even worse.

"I. Am. Coming!" I shouted up at the windows.

When I made it to the room, everyone was staring at me like I committed the worst crime on the face of the earth.

I simply ignored them and took my seat next my my dad, setting my wand on the table and leaning back in my chair.

The Dark Lord watched us silently and looked like he was going to speak when my dad snatched my wand off the table.

He examined it then looked from the wand to me, then the wand to me, then the wand to me.

"Clarissa?" he asked.

"Hello father," I smiled.

The meeting went on and he ignored me the whole time.

When we were eventually dismissed he grabbed my wrist and appeared us top Spinner's End.

"What the hell were you thinking?!" he shouted, pacing.

"You aren't proud, father?" I asked.

He ignored my question and said, "This is not what your mother would have wanted."

My face darkened and I gave him my deadliest look, "My mother is dead," I growled through gritted teeth.

He started to speak but I stopped him with a solid, "Fuck you."

—

When I arrived back at Hogwarts, I immedaitley sprinted to the restroom. I pulled on my hair and inwardly screamed, he wasn't supposed to find out!

"Shit, shit, shit, shit," I cursed turning to the mirror. My hair was a mess and I had been crying which left behind mascara staining under my eyes and cheeks.

"Dammit!" I yelled, punching the mirror. It shattered into a thousand pieces and my left knuckles gushed blood.

I stared down at my hand, disgusted. I deserved that.

"What the hell!" someone yelled from behind me.

I spun quickly, ready to kill when I saw Hermione Granger.

"What is that?" she asked, pointing to my bleeding arm. I looked down to see my sleeve rolled up and dark mark exposed.

I smirked at her and answered darkly, "What does it look like?"

She opened her mouth to scream but I had her on the floor in point two seconds.

I straddled her waist while my knees pinned down her hands and I covered her mouth with my bloody hand. I used my free hand to shove the tip of my wand under her chin and said, "One fucking word Granger and I'll kill every person you have even slightly cared about before you can scream help." Her eyes were wide and she tried to flail so I pressed my body against her tighter so she could barely move.

"Don't underestimated me, Granger! Should I share some information with you? Huh? Let's see, I successfully killed two Hogwarts students without being caught. I've slaughtered more of your nasty mudblood friends than you could ever imagine. I've tortured children and families and holy shit I want to kill you but how would that help me? Two murders back to back and for what? I'm sure they would definitely start investigating then and not to mention you friend Mister Potter would suspect some fucking Slytherin. Now, I could obliviate you but the fearful expression you wear really makes your eyes stand out. Keep your mouth shut and I'll make sure your filthy muggle family and your precious won-won stay alive. Understood?" I said.

She nodded with tears streaming down her smooth cheeks.

"Good girl," I whispered, pressing a kiss to the corner of her lips and then her nose before I waved my wand to clean up the mirror and my hand.

I stood and left the bathroom leaving a very frightened Hermione Granger on the floor.

—

"Who did this to you?" I whispered, running my hands over some of the scars left on Draco's torso.

"You can't go hurting them," he said taking my cold hands in his warm ones.

My eyes darkened, "It was Potter. He's dead," I said starting to leave when he pulled me back.

"Issa, please," he said softly, his icy grey orbs boring into mine.

I gulped suddenly becoming nervous as butterflies flew around in my stomach.

"Sure," I managed barely above a whisper.

I was going to sit in a chair but before I could, he made room in the bed and pulled me in with him. I didn't complain. I kicked off my shoes and cupped up to him enjoying his crisp forest morning scent.

"I still have to perform the task," he whispered.

I sighed and drew random shaped on his pale epidermis.

"I know..."

"Can I ask you something?"

I shrugged, "Sure."

"Do you think they will very get better? Our lives I mean. They're messes at the moment," he said.

I chuckled, "Tell me about it. I know I want to serve the Dark Lord for the rest of my days but I need to hurry with school first."

I felt him nod and breathe calmly as we sat in silence, staring out the window and watching the snow fall gracefully.

It was a beautiful moment while it lasted.

—

We sat in his chambers silently staring into the flames.

"Why," he said in more of a statement rather than a question.

"How many times am I going to have to explain myself? I did it because I wanted to! I find some sort of sick joy from serving the dark lord whether you approve or not!"

"But why?!"

"Because, Severus, it felt right! I felt my depression fade away when I saw the mark, I feel good being a death eater!"

"Killing people shouldn't be a stress reliever!" he said.

I chucked as salty tears fell down my red cheeks, hot from the fire, "But it is, you see. I like to see my victims' eyes filled with pain and fear. Hearing their screams just seems to bury the depression deeper into my body."

His face looked hurt and tired. He looked like he hadn't slept for weeks and it hurt my dark heart for a moment but he wasn't going to stop me from being me.

"I still love you," he whispered.

I nodded and stood, "Goodnight," I said.

He just started up at me and I left the room.

SO CHOPPY I KNOOOW!! I wrote this in a notebook a little while ago so my writing in my other, more recent books is different and definitely better. This was also scanned rather than fully edited.