Diana

Chapter 23 : Just A Mistake

"Diana honey, where are you?!" My mom yelled worriedly.

Oh no, my mom can't see that I have cut. No one but harry knows about this. Nobody else can know. I acted quickly, rummaging through some draws to find as much gauze as I possible need. I heard her footsteps come closer. I quickly wrapped 4 layers of gauze around my wrist taped it and pulled the sleeve of my sweater down and picked the razor off the ground and put it into my back pocket. Success.

Mom knocked on the bathroom door.

"Honey he left it's gonna be okay" I could hear her crying and sniffling and I slowly opened the door, and pulled her into a hug. A very firm hug. I love my mother a lot, and I think she forgets that.

"I'm trying my best to move out, I'm so sorry, I just don't have enough money." She sobbed.

"Mom, don't apologize, it's not your fault."

She nodded her head no. "It is, I'm the one who cheated and made your father the way he is now."

"That was just a mistake mommy."

"I miss you saying mommy, I miss my little Diana." She laughed wiping away a tear.

"Mom I'm still her." I smiled while crying.

Mom is never like this, she's always so stern, and bossy. But right now, I think she's showing that she's always stressed, taking double shifts and not getting to spend time with me and josh. I miss my mother, the last time I can remember her being like this was before she cheated on my father, and before my father was a maniac, was when I was about 12.

My dad wasn't really that close, but he was close enough to kiss me goodnight every night after his full day of work, he would even make me giggle, telling me funny stories and all that, that was the only time I got to see him. He would make me so happy. But when I turned thirteen one night everything changed.

Mom got fired from her favorite career, and since dad wasn't home all day, she invited this guy over because she was lonely, I don't blame her. Her and that guy ended up doing the dirty, then dad came home that night and started to beat my mother. I yelled at him plenty of times and he went drinking every night, and only beat him and mother and made josh watch him do it. Of course josh cried through it all and sometimes even tried to stop him but it was no help.

Dad started to do this up until today and even when he's not drunk he still does it. I wonder does he ever think of our relationship when I was younger, does he even realize what he has done and continues doing?