To Be In Love Or Not

PROLOGUE

- Prologue - 

"Blaine?" a soft high pitched voice echoed out through the hallways. 

The voice trailed back to a tall, thin boy with short groomed chestnut hair with light toned skin and the most beautiful blue eyes anyone could possibly see. His black dress shoes hit the ground with a light tap as he looked around nervously, occasionally taking short glances at his own well designed grey suit with a thick red collar as anxiousness began to mix in with his emotions - as if he didn't have enough already - filling his heart. 

"Ku-Kurt?" the deeper yet still as soft as the other boy's voice stuttered, exhibiting a tone anyone would know as sad, from right behind the suited boy. 

The everlasting blue eyes turned to the luscious golden eyes as they ran into each other’s arms both in tears, wearing so many emotions and feelings. A bond that would seem unbreakable to the public eye.  

"What happened to you Blaine? You have to tell me now! You can't keep hiding things from me as if I'm just some person…Because I'm not, I'm your boyfriend. And I care about you Blaine, so, so much. I really do. But I can't do ANYTHING if you’re keeping your distance from me... You need to tell me... Please Blaine...” the taller boy mumbled helplessly, keeping the embrace with the shorter boy who buried his head into his partners shoulder.  

"I-I can't tell you... I'm sorry Kurt, I-I just can't." he cried out, lifting his head from the tall boys shoulder, in a way that he could speak clearly. 

The boy named Kurt sighed though, and backed away from him, already frustrated with trying to figure everything out. Everything that seemed to be going on with his very own boyfriend. The love of his life. The one that kept him sane, but was currently driving him insane.  

But the other one, Blaine – was still in tears vigorously shaking his head. 

"No. No! Kurt, please don't tell me you’re going to leave me too? I need you Kurt; you have no idea how sorry I am that I can't tell you. It's just the fact that, it would hurt you too much Kurt, and I would never intentionally hurt you Kurt – because it would kill me!" he exclaimed, still sobbing with every second that passed through, with every word he spoke. 

"No Blaine, I'm not leaving you! Don't you ever think like that!" Kurt said, coming closer once again to Blaine who was on his knees tears falling from his delicate face, angry at himself while his mind and heart had a battle of whether or not to tell Kurt the truth – the painful, ugly truth. 

Kurt took his hands and held them tightly, showing his true care and concern. Blaine looked up into Kurt's gorgeous blue eyes with a frown still positioned right on his face, and wet tears trailing down his smooth olive cheeks. 

"Why do you think it will hurt me Blaine?" Kurt asked, trying to understand everything that was going on. 

"Because it hurts me too that I ever did it.. Or thought about it, and I just hate the fact that I doubted anything, between us." Blaine mumbled angrily, now looking down at Kurt's small hands that were placed on top of his own hands, that were just a bit larger then Kurt's. 

Kurt gave a confused look and sighed once more, even more confused by what Blaine was saying to him. He was just beginning to grow tired of what was happening, but he knew in his heart that he couldn't just give up on this - he needed to know. 

"Nothing you do Blaine, will ever hurt me. I mean some things could hurt me - maybe make me mad at you for a while - but you more than anyone else knows Blaine. I can never stay mad at you. I just love you too much and we've already both been through hell and back.. Even when we weren't together." Kurt began, offering a weak smile but it was a sincere one filled with the little hope that remained within him.