To Be In Love Or Not

Chapter 4 - Love And Alcohol

~ Love And Alcohol (Chapter 4) ~

[[ Kurt's Point Of View ]]

I ran as I breathed heavily continuing down the streets of 34th Avenue.

Honestly that moment I'd seen Blaine I was so happy! I was glad to see his glossy curls and his perfect olive skin tone.. And to hear that voice of his? I couldn't possibly show how happy I was.. And really I couldn't.

None of this means I was alright with what he did back then.. It's been a year yes, since it happened but that doesn't sincerely mean my heart's healed again. And I don't need another heartbreak! 

I stopped running instantly and stopped to the side while others were still speed walking past me left and right. I sighed and stroked my fingers lightly through my soft hair. I turned to see where I'd even stopped since it was 8:00 PM at night and honestly I just 'NEEDED' a drink right now.

Seeing Blaine again? It was good to me yet still confusing.. I didn't need those two emotions right now. I stared at the neon sign in front of me.. Just my luck eh?

Golden Lovers - GAY BAR -  

I smirked and opened the light red tinted glass door quickly walking in. Looking around I came closer towards a.. A red stool? I wasn't completely sure because it seemed to be practically pitch black in here besides the lights that flashed every second at the least. Like strobe lights I guess.. Blaine had always been scared of them.

I chuckled thinking about the Halloween party Rachel had hosted once with the help of both Puckerman's Jake and Noah of course!

~ There had been strobe lights there and Blaine was panicking.. 

"Kurt I can't do this.. It's making me nervous! God I can't-I can't stand it.." He stuttered looking around anxiously wanting to leave. ~

It really sucked when I had broken up with him because I started getting all these memories of us and all it did was hurt, because I had left him all alone either way although I'd promised to never leave his side. But here I was..

At a gay bar. Attempting to get drunk so I could hopefully forget about "The Break Up" for the rest of the night. 

By at least 11:00PM I was totally boozed up and simply I could feel nothing at the moment..

No emotions.. No feelings.. But I could say at the least I just wanted to sing! That was of course until my stupid phone buzzed.. It'd been buzzing all this time so I had just decided to answer it finally even though, I had no clue who it was since the name was blurry in my eyes.. Plus normally nobody would call at this time besides you know. Rachel and occasionally Santana.

"Hellooooo.." I slurred into the mic of the phone.

"Kurt? Kurt is that you?" Blaine questioned through the line.

"The one and only buddyy!" I replied in a strangely happy tone.

"Wait Kurt.. Are you-" And simple as that I cut him off.

"Hey dude.. In that awful looking black thingyy stuck to your chest! Can I get another shot? And another.. And another one after? JUST GIVE ME MILLIONS OF THEM!?" I exclaimed crazily.

"Um.. Kurt where are you right now? Are you at a certain bar? What's the name of it?" He asked quickly speaking.

I smirked as the lovely bartender gave me a couple more. I swallowed the alcohol down whole speedily and then replied about probably.. 30 minutes later so you can imagine how many a "Couple More" is.