Random Poems

Better off

I'd rather put a bullet throw my brain,
Or blade through a vein,
Because it was 4 am and I was stuck thinking about you,
I was thinking about you and I didn't know what else to do.
Did you ever really love me? Or was it all a lie?
Did you mean all those things you said? Did you ever look back after we said goodbye?
My nights were long and my thoughts cluttered,
And slowly I felt my soul starting to shutter.
My brain thought of you and my thoughts went dark,
My world went quiet, I couldn't even hear my dogs bark.
You told me so many things, were they all just blank lies?
I'm starting to wonder if you were worth the cuts on my thighs.
I marked my body, I hated myself
All because you only cared about yourself.
But I'm glad it's over, and that you're out of my life.
Because now I've gotten better, and I might've found a wife.
Although it's too soon, I hope it is true,
Because my thoughts are no longer haunted by you.
If you do come to my mind and I find myself wishing I was dead,
Your name wouldn't be on the bullet, the last thing threw my head.
For now everything is different, this is for sure,
Because my new girl has given me the ultimate cure.
I no longer think of you, or miss the sound of your voice,
In fact I'd never like to hear it again, if I really had the choice.
Yes, indeed, you are in this world too,
But I can sleep easy at night knowing that I'm better off without you.