Love Is Blind

Chapter Eighteen

Alex's POV

"Come on Alex, we're going to be late!" Tobin says as she knocks on the bathroom door. I let out a sigh as I rolled up my socks and put on my slides. I finally opened the door and saw Tobin laying on our bed.

"I didn't take that long." I say as I grab my duffle and swing it over my shoulder.

"Alex, it's 1:26. Practice is at 1:30." Tobin says. I just shake my head and together we walk out to the car and drive to the practice field. Fortunately, we got there before our coach did.

"I need to use the bathroom." Tobin says as she quickly sets her stuff down.

"Why didn't you go earlier?" I say with a small laugh.

"You were taking forever!" Tobin says as she playfully shoves me.

She smiles at me before running off. I smile and shake my head before sitting on the bench to put my cleats and shin guards on.

"Nice boots." I hear someone say. I look up and see Allie Long standing in front of me. I lace up my last boot and stand up with a smile.

"I gotta say, I like yours too." I say with a smile as Allie pulls me in for a hug.

"I feel like it's been forever." Allie says with a small laugh.

"Yep, I mean we see each other everyday but it's nice talking to you one on one. I've missed you y'know." I say.

"We should get together soon." Allie suggests and I smile at the idea. "Tonight maybe?"

I let out a sigh. "Tobin has a surprise date for me." I say, smiling at the thought.

"Wait... Are you two together?" Allie asks.

I shake my head yes and smile at the thought of being with Tobin.

"I'd be careful." Allie says in a dark kind of tone.

"Why? She's like an angel."

"She never told you?" Allie says.

"Tell me what?" I ask getting more curious.

"That she did drugs. Heroin, Cocaine, Meth. You name it, she did it." Allie said.

I looked at her and shook my head. "No, she's not like that. I know she isn't."

"You sure you know? Because I went to college with her and that's all she did. She got kicked off the soccer team her junior year when the coaches found out that she was high. Hell, she almost got kicked out of college for driving under the influence." Allie says.

I just couldn't believe what I was hearing. I would have never thought that Tobin would do such a thing. She seemed, perfect. She was perfect.

"All I'm saying is to be careful. She can get violent at times. Plus, you never know what she could be doing when she's alone." Then Allie smiles at me and turns to walk away.

I stand there, shocked at her words. I didn't know if she was telling me the truth or making stuff up but I can tell you now that I was scared.

I turned around and saw Tobin walking towards me and she smiled at me. I stared at her without smiling back. She seemed different now, I look at her completely differently.

I forced a smile until finally, practice started.

*

After practice, Tobin and I drove him and she reached to grab my hand but I quickly pulled away.

She looked at me with an expression on her face that killed me in the inside but I felt like I couldn't trust her anymore.

When we got back to our condo, I set my stuff down and sat at the kitchen table.

"Tobin, I'm not feeling well... I don't think I can go out tonight." I say. My mouth felt dry, nothing felt right.

"Oh. Do you need me to get you anything?" She asks and I shake my head no.

She walked over to me and attempted to feel my forehead before I pulled away from her.

"I want to be alone, please." I say, not meaning to sound so harsh.

Tobin backed away from me and nodded before going to her room, closing the door behind her.

*

Days have passed and I could feel Tobin and I slowly drifting away. I felt unsafe for some reason, nothing felt right when I was with her. It just wasn't normal.

Ever since I found out what her past was like, I was worried the past would come back and destroy us. But I feel like it's already destroying us and I wasn't ready for what was to come

We haven't slept together for like four days and honestly, it was weird. I was so used to cuddling with her and feeling her warmth. I missed it but I felt vulnerable.

I sat at the kitchen table and I saw Tobin sitting on the couch. She stood up and walked over to me.

"What's wrong?" She finally asks. It felt like the first time in years since we talked, everything was just so different. I saw her differently. "Just tell me."

I let out a sigh.

"I.... I can't tell you."

"Yes you can. We used to tell each other everything. I won't be mad, I promise." Tobin says, with pleading eyes.

"I- I just don't feel... Safe." I finally say.

"You don't feel safe? Why?" Tobin asks.

"Because... Because of you." I say and I could feel the tears forming in my eyes.

*

Tobin's POV

I felt my heart tear in half and everything crumble underneath me.

"What?" I say in disbelief.

"I can't be with you anymore... I just can't." Alex says and I felt like yelling and screaming but I kept my cool. I needed answers.

"What did I do? Did I hurt you?"

Alex shakes her head no and a tear rolls down her cheek. I wanted to wipe them away but I kept my hands to my side.

"What happened? Please, give me an answer." I beg.

"You did drugs. Who knows what the hell you do when you're alone. I have no idea if you're using me or not." Alex says.

My eyes widen and I felt my world go upside down.

I just nod my head as I slowly walk away from her. She called my name a couple times but I ignored her as I went into my room, and closed the door. Making sure it was locked.

I grab my luggage and started placing all of my things inside. I grabbed my phone and dialed a number.

"It's Tobin Heath, I'd like to sign with PSG."

***

What happens next?