Tobin's POV
Alex looked at me but quickly looked away as if she was scared.
"You have to understand that I'm hurting too. You don't know what I've been though ever since I found you and Christen together." Alex says.
"I know and I get it. I'm sorry I don't know how many times you want me to say it but I'm sorry, alright?" I say as I stand up.
"That's not enough Tobin! I poured my heart out to you for so long and all I get in return is this bull shit!" Alex says as she stands up and faced me, this time with direct eye contact. It almost scared me.
"I'm sorry!"
"No you're not! You don't regret a thing you did!"
"I do regret it, Alex! I hate myself for doing it and I'd do anything to take it all back!" I fire back.
"You never loved me and you never will, how am I supposed to trust you?" Alex says.
"What do you want me to do?" I ask.
"I wanted you to love me back! That's all I ever wanted from you. I gave you my heart and you just threw it away! How could you do that to me?"
"I never wanted to hurt you, Alex. And I'm sorry."
"Never wanted to hurt me? That's bull shit! All your life you've crushed my heart and I'm hurting Tobin! Don't you get it? I can't go on like this."
"I'm hurting too, Alex! I hate myself for all the things I've done to you!" I say back.
"You're hurting? Are you kidding me? You're the one who hurt me? It was you decision to screw other girls! And you're telling me that you're hurting?"
"I know what I did was wrong, Alex. And I'm trying to make things right."
"Isn't it a little to late for that?" Alex asks as she wipes her tears away. I looked at her lips and all I wanted to do was kiss them but I couldn't. I knew it would be wrong.
"Just give me a chance, Alex."
"I've given you so many chances to change. And you ruined each chance you got."
"Just one last chance, please." I beg.
"There's no way in hell I'm letting you back into my god damn life. I'm tired of getting hurt over and over again. And every time I heal you end up hurting me again and I can't do it anymore." Alex says and all I do is nod.
"Then what do you want me to do?" I ask.
"I'm moving on, it's time you do the same."
"Look, Alex. I'm sorry for hurting you and breaking you. I'm sorry I couldn't love you enough. If you can give me one more chance-"
"Stop saying your sorry!" Alex yells at me.
"Well what else do you want me to say?" I ask.
"I wanted you to say I love you." Alex says as a tear rolls down her cheek.
"I loved you, Alex."
"No you didn't! You liar!" Alex screams as she pushes me.
"Alex that's enough! Take a walk!" Kelley says as she stands in between us. Alex storms out of my apartment.
I felt tears form in my eyes but I refused to let them fall. I sat down on the couch and Kelley sat next to me. I buried my head in my hands, this was my fault. It'll always be my fault.
"I'm sorry about her." Kelley says with a long sigh.
"How is she, really?" I ask as I look over at Kelley.
"Well she's a lot better than before. She's been through a lot y'know and it's been hard on her."
"Trust me Kels, I feel awful about everything and if I had the power to do things over I would. I love Alex I really do and I... miss her."
"I'm not picking sides, Tobin. If you love her that much you'd fight for her. That's what you do for the people you love, you fight for them." Kelley says as she stands up.
"She doesn't trust me." I say as I follow her towards the door.
"Then fix it." Kelley says and she was out the door.
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