*fast forward to the 2012 Olympic Games*
Alex's POV
We were heading into the Semi Finals against Canada. We couldn't lose this time. We couldn't come back from losing the World Cup to losing the London Olympics. This tournament has been hard, it has been challenging but we've made it to the Semi Finals, that's what matters.
The girls were in the locker room getting ready for the game. Like always, Cheney started playing music and Syd and Abby danced their best moves, at least Syd did, Abby, not so much.
My mind was somewhere else, lost in my own thoughts. I stared at Tobin and watched her laugh at a joke Cheney had said. Her smile made me so happy, she was just so... Perfect. She was different in the best way possible.
I remembered that a couple weeks back, I asked Tobin if she loved me and her answer was no. I didn't know what to feel at the time. Should I have been relieved because I had Servando? Of should I have been utterly heart broken?
I love her, I know I do but she will never love me back. We won't ever be together.
I stood up and walked over to a quieter area to regain focus. I couldn't think about Tobin, we were in the Semi Finals. I couldn't let my team down again.
I looked down at my soccer cleats and reached down to tie my shoes but I felt my hands shaking aggressively. I was nervous, the nerves were finally getting to me.
Then I saw another pair of cleats in front of me and I looked up to see Tobin with a small smile on her face. My hands continued shaking as she crouched down in front of me and grabbed my hands in hers. She squeezed them tightly until my hands stopped shaking.
She tied my shoes for me and when she was finished she sat next to me on the bench I was sitting on.
"Nervous?" She asks.
"Absolutely."
"Well, you're going to do great like you always do. I believe in you, okay? This team believes in you." Tobin says with a smile as she stands up and pulls me up to my feet.
"Let's win this thing." She says and we head back into the locker room and line up, ready to go out onto the pitch.
*
When the game started, Canada already added so much pressure on us. Christine Sinclair kept scoring, and Pinoe kept firing back.we scored goals back and forth until Abby tied the game with a penalty kick.
Then, no one scored. We went into over time and still, no one scored. As a team we were getting anxious. No one knew who was going to win, no one knew which team was going into the finals to get the gold medal.
I watched Abby as she kicked the ball to HAO who sprinted for the ball. Then she crossed it, the most perfect cross ever. I jumped up for the header and on the 123rd minute I scored.
Everyone in the stands jumped up and everyone started surrounding me with hugs. Abby even started crying. It was the best moment of my life.
I looked around and finally locked eyes with Tobin who had the largest smile on her face. She ran over to me and pulled me into the biggest hug anyone has ever given me.
"Alex Morgan, I freaking love you right now!" She says into my ear. When she finally pulled away, she gave me a kiss on the cheek before running off with her fellow new kids.
I stood there for a minute and thought about what just happened. I really love this girl, but I knew I wasn't gay or bi. Maybe I was, I had know idea but I felt something whenever I was around Tobin.
Then I thought about Serv again. What about that promise ring? He loves me, he adores me. But I love Tobin, I adore her. I could imagine Tobin and I being together, being so happy together. I could imagine the two of us getting married and having kids. I could imagine a lifetime with her.
But then, I thought about Tobin and what I did to her back in high school. I had to tell her, and I had to tell her soon. But the question was.
Am I really in love with Tobin Heath?
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My freaking Talex heart is hurting because of this damn book. Why do I do this to myself?
