Panic Attack (Jc Caylen)

4. Why me?

EMILY'S P.O.V.

"I-I uh. Well um Emily?", Jc said scratching the back of his neck nervously.

"Jc what the hell is going on?",I ask getting worried.

"It's nothing bad, I swear it's just. Well I....uh.", Jc said starting to annoy me slightly by not answering my question at all.

"Jc seriously. What's going on?", I asked not having patience any more. 

"Never mind.", Jc said making me want to know more. 

"Come on Jc", I say pushing him even though its rude and may not be any of my nusiness but still. I don't want to be at a party when all I can think about is what was on Jc's mind.

"Fine you really want to know?", Jc said getting annoyed by my eagerness to know.

"YES!", I yell gaining everyone's attention.

"\What's going on guys?", Connor asks, curious from my sudden outburst.

"Nothing!", Jc replies quickly befoe rushing inside the house where the party was. I took this time to take in everything around me. People were already drunk stumbling around the front yard, music pounding so loud it could be heard a block away, and trash everywhere with the occasional random object laying on the ground. 

I reached the step of the house openning the door to reveal sweaty bodies scattered around the house dancing with drink in their hands, most looking drunk. 

My deep thoughts were interupted by Jared walking over to us carrying drinks to us almost spilling them all over me, instead hitting my shoes instead. Great, just great.

"Sorry.", Jared said with a sympathetic look on his face.

"It's fine.", I said with the best fake smile I could gather.

"Anyways welcome guys. I saw Jc over in the living room dancing with some blonde chick but I think he wants to play truth or dare.", Jared said beaming at the thought of truth or dare, me instantly having a flashback to my first time playing truth or dare at a party. Let's just say it was.....interesting.

We all followed Jared to the living room crowded with people I have never met. I spotted Jc's hair in the middle of the room. I walked, well shoved my way through the mass of bodies to reveal not only Jc but indeed with some blonde chick he has probably never even met. Hurt instantly washed over me making me rush to the washroom. I didn't want anyone to see me cry, especially Kian. Whenever I cry he some how ends up crying with me. 

I thought to myself why am I so hurt. I only have a small crush on him right? Anyways it's wrong to like him, that girl is obviously his girlfriend or soon to be. Why do I care about this so much? It's not like he would actually like me, right? Why does it have to be me in this situation?

JC'S P.O.V.

I couldn't face her and tell her the truth. I have always liked her from the moment I layed eyes on her. Her smile, her humor, her beauty, everything. She is perfect but beyond obvious she doesn't like me back.

I didn' t want her questioning me further so I ran off before I could hear her beautiful voice. As I walked in I was greeted by a drunk Jared. He handed me a drink before taking off god knows where. I stayed to the side to watch people dance.  I wasn't really into the whole dancing scene tonight. All I can think about is Emily. Before I had a chance to think I was pulled into the crowd by a stranger as they started to grind on me. There was no way out. Bodies filled every space around me and I could barely moved. I guess i should just dance.

I was actually starting to enjoy myself after taking a few sips of my drink before locking eyes with Emily. Hurt flashed in her eyes and I instantly knew any chances I may have had with Emily are gone forever. What did I just do? SHe ran off before I could find her and I was left to think.

What the hell is wrong with me? I'm so stupid. I could have had an actual chance and I ruined it, but why does this hurt me so bad. I do only like her, right? Why is this happening to me?