Caged Hearts

4

Jhene

I didn't mean to fall in love with you but I did

From the very first time I talked to you, I knew there was something so true in this person sitting in front of me that I didn't  have to act like an higher  class version of me. I could be true.

Others might look at our  relationship and laugh at me. But they know nothing. They  know nothing about the past  my journey  of finding  you.  So they don't know anything  about how I feel about you,  about how  you  make me feel.

But I guess it was LIE

Now you're telling me about  these problems  you having with Robyn, like I care but I told you so...

"She giving me mixed signals," She said while sighing

"Well what you want me to do" I  said rolling my eyes

"I don't know I gave her a note  today telling her how I feel and she told me to stop."

"Well....",

"And all she talks about is Chris and  how she miss him and their past and how he treated her."

" That means she not interested "

"But I keep telling her I can treat her better but she doesn't get the picture. She shows feelings  for me one day and the next day another.  She  playing with  my emotions  Jhene." She said sounding aggravated.

"I don't know what to tell you."

She  always  talking about  other boys mannn come on I'm here for you,  I care.

This conversation was aggravating me. We're on the talking about Robyn.  You know I don't like Robyn  like that,so why are your telling me this to make me jealous  or something.  If you are it's working.

Onika

I thought you were  the one.  I rather hear, "I don't like you" instead of  being ignored. What was once whole is shattered; where once was peace is emptiness, echoes of a love I put my everything into. With each passing day you take another step away though I asked you to show some sign of caring, affection, of love. All you bring is confusion , suspicion and an averted gaze. I feel so unwanted I tried so hard but all you did was look at me. You shattered me. I end up hurting  someone that I care about. I waste so much time thinking about you and  you don't even think about me for a second. I feel played and stupid.

I have to cut her off before I get any farther.

I'm starting to talk to Jhene  more. I'm worried for her because she doing thing I  never seen her do before like having spasms in public and cutting herself. I told her to stop but I don't think She's  going to. I didn't  know  I affected her like that. I feel bad what if she kills herself  because of me.

We was chillin outside my house  listening to music.  I was texting  Robyn. I heard something quite but delicate.

🎵Pay attention to the signs
Stay and listen, you will find
Everything, ain't rocket science
Every gem is not a diamond🎵

🎵But the pressure
The pressure will make you feel🎵

🎵The pressure.🎵