summer*Jc's POV*
"I fucked up. big time." I said as I paced around the living room while Connor, kian, and Ricky sat on the sofa.
"what do I do?" I asked. I fell onto the big beanbag chair sitting in the middle of the floor.
"give her time." Ricky said.
I nodded and layed my head back. I've barely slept in the past 3 days because of this, and I'm just tired.
"why don't you go to sleep. we'll keep an eye out" Connor said. I sighed and got up. I dragged myself up the stairs and plopped into bed. just then my phone vibrated.
summer:
hi
Jc:
hey.
summer:
can we talk? face to face..
the 3 words I didn't want to hear, but I needed to.
Jc:
I think we need to. meet me at the park in 5
I grabbed my shoes and a beanie to cover up my messy hair.
"i'll be back" I yelled as I ran down the stairs and grabbed the keys.
"where are you going?" kian asked coming out of the kitchen.
"summer wants to talk" I replied. he nodded and I walked outside. it was only a 5 minutes drive to the park, so that didn't give me long to think about what I was going to say.
when I arrived, I took a deep breath and got out of the car. I walked towards a bench under a big tree and waited. soon I saw summer walking towards me with her head down.
"hi," I whispered.
she looked up and started at me.
"hi" she whispered back.
"before we start, I just wan t to sa-" I started before she cut me off.
"you had me" she said still in a silent tone. " I loved you so much and poured my heart out to you. I sacrificed my time, my feelings and happiness all for you. And you know why i did that? Because you meant everything to me." she said getting louder.
" So It’s my fault now that it didn't work out? " I yelled back.
"No Jc its both of our faults. my fault because I put so much into our relationship. its your fault because you weren't honest." she said while a tear rolled down her cheek.
*Summer's POV*
" What the hell did you want me to do?"
I interrupt him. " I wanted you to tell me. if you would've told me earlier, it would've have turned out like this. I needed you."
Letting go of him was something I didn't wanna do. He was my first love, the guy who i’d compare everyone else to. Despite all his flaws and everything he did, there was a part of me, even if it was tiny, that would always love him.
" I’m sorry summer" He said with a frown on his face tilting his head to the side. I wasn't sure if he was about to cry or not but, he meant it.
"maybe this just a mistake. all of it. it will be for the best" he shrugged.
” Yeah… Just stay safe Jc okay? I hope you find someone who is able to make you the happiest guy in the world. And i hope they realize that when they are holding your hand they are holding my world. I’m sorry, Bye” I turned around, and another tear fell.
I started walking as fast as I could. I couldn't handle being in front of him anymore. There was so much pain.
"I love you summer…" Jc’s voice said from a far distance.
I started walking as the sky filled up with dark clouds and eventually the rain started falling. great. I slid down on a tree trunk hoping the rain would clear up, which it didn't.
"hey" I heard a familiar voice. I looked up and my eyes met with Connor.
"hi" I said. my voice was almost gone from yelling.
"do you need a ride home?" he asked. I nodded and he held out his hands to help me up.
"thanks" I said brushing the dirt off my butt.
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once I arrived home, I went straight to the shower. I always do my best thinking there and it helps me clear my mind at the same time. I grabbed a pair of sweatpants and a t-shirt from my drawers and went downstairs where Alex and Ari were.
"how are you doing?" Alex asked.
"I'm fine. but I think I might go back to Maryland for a little while." I replied.
the girls nodded.
"ou guys can stay here if you want. I just need a break from California." I continued.
"we understand" they said in unison.
"when?" Ari asked
"2 days" I replied grabbing a water bottle from the fridge.
"I should probably get going. I'm going out with Connor tonight." ari said standing up and walking upstairs leaving just me and Alex.
"well, I was supposed to go out tonight but I'll just stay here with you" Alex said smiling.
"you sure? you can go, I'll be fine" I replied. I really just wanted to be alone tonight.
she nodded and went upstairs leaving me alone in the kitchen.
"you'll be okay?" Ari said walking downstairs wearing a tight black dress.
"yeah" I replied and walked into the living room.
"don't do anything stupid" she said patting me on the head and leaving.
"I'm heading out too. call me if you need anything" Alex said before also walking out the door.
"I guess its just you and me" I said to our cat that Jc got me. I sighed remembering that.
I layed my head back on the sofa. I didn't want to miss him even though I did.
I closed my eyes hoping these thoughts would leave.
everything reminded me of him.
to Justin:
from summer:
i'm sorry.
I wasn't sure if I was going to regret sending that. but I sent it anyway.
I decided on watching Disney movies on Netflix because that always cheered me up. I was in the middle of watching Toy Story when my phone buzzed.
From Justin
to summer
me too.
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