Depressed Doll II-The Origin

Help? I dont need it anymore...

it was friday that day

after what happened on monday i decided to stay home for some days and for some reason i wanted to come today, maybe it was because arts is at fridays and i love drawing...
i dunno what will happen today, maybe Mandy is going to beat me again...bully me even more or even worse....
when i reached school i walked to my class and as i walked, everyone was staring at me but i ignored them and kept going while looking down again,not blinking not only because i was lost in thought but because i didn't want to and somehow i handled it the whole day...lunch time came and Mandy did the same as on monday "you're so weak you know?"she asked "im not the bitch who's asking her boyfriends to beat a defenseless girl am i?"i asked almost in a whisper, the guys beated me again but i felt...nothing...nothing but physical pain...no matter how many times they punched, slapped or kicked me, i felt only pain and i was crying,i was still looking numb while i cried and left them beat me until i was again on the floor but minutes after they left, i stood up like nothing had happened and walked to classes.
when i was in arts i left my hands work and my mind just slipped away from this world, when my mind came back to me, i blinked twice and realized i had draw a star inside a circle,the circle was in 10 parts with 5lines connected with the corners of the star,the 10 parts were red and the star was Black"Depression Leads To Insanity" was written above and under the circle and i decided to fold it and hid it on my bag.
when i got in my last class, i saw Mary speaking with the teacher, the one from last week, the one who spoke with Mary, i just didn't pay attention to it.
The teacher was speaking but i was looking to the white pages of my notebook while sad and suddenly i got called"y-yeah?"i asked nervously "can you stay after classes?"she asked, i looked down "sure"i whispered, some of my classmates laughed at this "quiet" the teacher said and kept with the class.
when the class ended,everyone left even Mandy did so it was just me, Mary and the teacher "i heard of what happened are you okay?" Mary asked, i nodded "why have you done that to yourself? suicide it's not a good thing, you shouldnt do th-"the teacher asked, i kept looking down not blinking not in thoughts...i was just paralized there listening to them but i cutted her off"i have my reasons"i said still looking down"what were they?" Mary asked "I wish i could say...but i cant...all i can say is...be careful with the persons you trust, they are and do more than you think"i replied and walked home.
when i got there, i began walking to my room but i felt a hand on my shoulder and stopped"Deborah"this is my name Deborah Fernandes my mom's friend called me i guess she was here to speak with my mom about what happened,"what do you want?"i asked"come and eat something"she said i shook my head and saw my evil mom faking another smile"why not?"she asked,i kept quiet "can i at least help you with something?homework?"she asked"thanks but...

help?I dont need it anymore..."

i replied and went to my room, i locked the door as soon as i got in and when i turned to my bed, Smiley Mask was there, sitting on my bed "i've been watching you this week"he said"im worried"he said, i sat on my bed in front of him and Mighty sat between us"i'm sorry"i said"it's okay...i can tell you're in a sea of doubts, that's why i came"he said"why are you watching me?"i asked"it's my mission to watch and protect you from some dangers..."he replied"were you a human or did you born like that?"i asked"i don't remember...it was a long time ago..."he said"why did you save me from my uncle?" i asked"i told you already, because it's my mission"he replied"i've been feeling weird lately, actually i can't feel anything at all..."i said "some of your emotions left your body and soul, but you still can feel the ones which didn't...but they'll be hidden until the time to feel them comes"he said "and...i saw a face in the mirror..."i said"you'll have to find that out by yourself"he said and turned into smoke and flew away from my room...
his voice was still in my head

you'll have to find that out by yourself

i played in my room with Mighty until night time...i layed on my bed and tried my hard to fall asleep but it was hard to do so cause i couldn't forget what Smiley Mask said but i ended up falling asleep.