Depressed Doll II-The Origin

The First Act Of Insanity

it was wednesday already and what does that mean? No classes in the afternoon, meaning?less bullying
i dressed my usual clothes and got ready to leave, today i got ready slower because i didn't want to wait for the right time to leave and i thought that if i change my routine i won't face those two bullies in my way to school.
when i finished getting ready i realized it was already time to leave.
i petted mighty for a while and then walked to school while having breakfast really fast cause i didn't want problems, in my way there i crossed paths with kai "good morning"i said "good morning"he replied and we kept walking.
when i arrived at school i saw Mary and Mandy both speaking and then the teacher came in the class, i sat on my seat but i didn't pay attention to class, i gave up on maths after all...i began thinking of random stuff.
it's been almost a day since smiley mask left and i was missing him already...i would chuckle at this but the place where i was wasn't a good place to do it...james began whispering dirty things to my ears with the intention of making me snap out of my thoughts but too bad im not snapped out that easily not even of my thoughts, it was like i wasn't hearing him at all as i kept thinking about smiley mask...
when the bell rang i decided to go out and get some fresh air because i was feeling a bit weird and also because our next class was PE but of course i didn't brought any clothes to the class because i never participate in the PE classes, i only do some tests...as i was walking outside, i felt someone pulling me making me fall to the floor, everyone laughed at me as i was on my hands and knees, i grunted my teeth and felt angry at everyone and everything and felt like crying too but i holded that, i stood up and looked behind me "you should be careful with your back"mandy said in a playful tone, i already knew it was her who had pulled me to the floor...i had a small headache as i heard a voice in my head"revenge" the voice said in my head, it was the same wild, angry and monstruous voice that came from me yesterday, after that i stopped feeling the headache and i began loosing control of my body for a while, i walked to to the girls' shower room and closed the door behind me, there i turned the switch that heat and freeze the water that no one is supposed to touch to the highest number of freezing and walked out without being seen, when the bell rang i finally realized what i have done but i didn't go to undo it,what's done is done and i'm not planning on telling i did it, i sat on a corner of the gym and watched my classmates exercising as i did nothing but stare.
the teacher told them to go have a bath, luckily Mary doesn't have baths here at school so my plan had no failures, i picked my stuff and went after Mary until she left the shower room, i stayed hidden against the wall oposite to the shower room and waited for something, then i heard the girls yelling things like "the water's cold!" i smiled evily for a while and then returned to my original expression so no one would suspect and walked away.
As i walked i thought i had made a huge mistake but something in me told that they did deserve it and that i should not regret doing it and something also told me i won't be caught, so i went calmly to the next class

They deserved it and i won't regret of what i did, they all bully me a lot so why not playing a bit of their game? seems fun...

they were still looking for the one who freezed the water, i was laughing on the inside while i had the same expression on the outside, then the class stopped and some teachers came in "when your classmates were having bath after PE the water was in the highest level of freezing and we are sure no one of our personnel would do that, so who froze that water?"one of the teachers asked, i kept on with my draw like that's nothing with me "it must have been that freak!"Mandy said, i stopped drawing and snapped out of my thoughts, maybe she found out that it was i who did it, so i looked up and bingo, she was pointing at me and then the whole class stared at me, i pretended i knew nothing by just staring confused like 'why are you looking at me?' "she is the only one that could have done that because she never baths here and she is always the first arriving anywhere"Mandy said "tell the truth was it you?"the maths teacher asked"she wouldn't do such a thing"Shout said"but Mandy has a point, she's always the first arriving at anywhere"the maths teacher said, for a bit i lost control there"miss Taylor is right, i wouldn't do such a thing, although i hate you all doesn't mean that i would low to same level as you to make a prank like that"i lied, they all stared at me"it was definately not her"arts teacher said"why don't you just look to find prints all over?"i asked and instantly shutted up"you're right, the switch is cleaned everyday but today it wasn't so it will be easy to know who did it"the maths teacher said, somehow i didn't stress out "we'll be able to tell the results by tomorrow"they said and left the class "you're fucked"Mandy said, i raised a brow and then kept drawing as i had another of those temporary small headaches 'dont worry' a voice in my head said.
when the classes ended i went home(to my room) and putted my things down and Mighty brought me lunch, i ate lunch and gave some to mighty, when i finished eating i felt a presence with me althought no one was there, for a moment i thought it was Smiley Mask but he was gone and this presence was familiar...like i knew it since i borned...like it was always with me...i heard a voice in my head "kill them all..."it said, it was the same female wild angry and monstruous voice...
suddenly i felt a horrible headache as i heard the same voice whispering things in my mind but after a while the voice stopped, i just stood there deep in thought for hours.
when i snapped out of my thoughts, i was standing in the middle of my room and checked the clock, it was almost time to meet yugi on the park, i looked shocked, have i been deep in thought for hours?! standing here and doing nothing?
i went out putting my key in my secret place and met kai at the park, he was sitting on the swing and i did the same, we spoke for hours and did the same as before, we played around the park and had ice cream, then 3 bullies came at us and began bullying Kai and they were ready to beat Kai"leave him alone"i said, they turned to me, i never saw those guys before in my life, maybe it was from the same school as kai "what do we have here? a freak?"a white haired guy said "leave me and my friend alone"i said"look boss a tough one"the same said"or what?"the same said"or you'll have to deal with me"i said without thinking, they all laughed"i'd like to see you try, you freak"the green haired one said, i stood up "kai, let's go"i said, kai stood up and we got ready to leave but they grabbed our jackets"i told i want to see you try"the green haired guy said, i took his hand off my jacket and turned to him, 'what in the hell am i doing?'i thought.
i tried punching the green haired guy but he dodged and punched my stomach, i grunted my teeth and tried to fight but the other 2 grabbed me and i tried to get free but i got no luck as the green haired guy ripped off my jacket and beated me up.
He just stopped beating me up after some minutes and i was bleeding from my mouth and had marks on my skin from the punches and kicks he gave me then he faced me"i hope you remember the face of the guy who had mercy and let you live"he said "it will be easy...since you...look like an alien"i said weakily with a smile on my face, the guy punched me one more time and the bullies let go off me, making me fall back and hit with my head hard to the ground with my eyes closed, i heard footsteps leaving and then i heard kai calling my name, i opened my eyes and stood up weakily holding my stomach and trying my hard to stay still and i tried leaving to my room but ended up falling again this time foward, kai yelled my name, i stood up again and left weakily to my place and kai helped taking me there so i wouldn't fall again "i'm sorry for all this..."he said"i'm the one who's sorry..."i said weakily and then we reached the entrance"y-you c-can go b-back...i-i'll be okay"i said "b-be careful..."i said, he nodded and walked away.
i walked in the house, went to my room weakily while holding my stomach, locked the door and i tried to walk to my bed but when i was going to take a step, i fell again and passed out.
i woke up when it was night time, Mighty was meowing for me and so i stood up and decided to pick the first aid kit and healed myself, it sure hurted lot but i hanged it, i've been through a lot of stuff lately, after doing so i began feeling a strong headache and the voice in my head kept screaming causing my headache to get stronger every minute it was telling me something like having revenge on people that deserve it while i screamed in pain, everyone except mighty, smiley mask and kai.
i tried to make these voices stop but got the same results and this time louder...i didn't knes what was wrong with me, maybe it was the hatred i had for everyone, my parents, my uncle, the bullies...i thought it was like that and then maybe i was just a bit sick and just woke up from fainting and i was on the middle of the floor.
after long hours, the voices stopped and i then decided it was time for me to get my stuff ready to next day to school and i did so.
after doing so, i made some draws and decided to pet mighty while listening to music and before i fell asleep, i turned the music off like i always do at 11p.m.