Depressed Doll II-The Origin

Returning

2 weeks passed and i was now better than before thanks to Smiley Mask and Mighty...I was not thin anymore but i wasn't fat either, i was just...Lets say fit...Smiley Mask took good care of me, i didn't leave my room though but i did move around it while i was getting better...
Smiley Mask and I decided that i was ready to go today, monday...
i had my things ready and i was already dressed and had breakfast but i had some more time so i just sat on my bed and waited for time to come.
i decided to go to school then and when i arrived there, everyone was staring at me but i ignored their stares and walked to class as expected no one was there yet, not even the teacher, i just went to my seat and waited, then Mandy and James came at me "look who's back"Mandy said, i just ignored her by looking down at my desk but she kept speaking, James was just listening to her"no one wants you and you are a nobody, so why don't you die for once?"she asked"because you are first"i said,silence filled the air for a while and then the others came in along with the teacher "alright go back to your seats please"the teacher said, i opened my notebook and copied everything that the teacher wrote on the board to my notebook and payed attention to the class.
Break time came and everyone left the class except me, the teacher told me that i could stay whenever i wanted and locked the door so no one would come in and bother me.
i made some draws and enjoyed the small time of silence in the class room and then again, when the teachers came i payed attention and copied until maths came up, i did not only hate the subject but also the teacher he was another snake.
Again, when the bell rang everyone left "Miss Fernandes didn't you hear the bell ring for lunch?"the teacher said, i'm so fucked..."the other teachers told that i can stay here whenever i wanted"i said "but i'm not like the other teachers, so go out imediatelly"he said, i rolled my eyes,picked my bag with my lunch and went out and crossed paths with my english teacher "miss Fernandes what are you doing here?"she asked "finding a spot to have lunch"i said "come with me, let's have lunch together and we can speak"she said, i nodded and she took me to a place where only teachers are allowed to go and we had lunch together, she even payed me a meal...guess i wasn't really all alone after all...
once we got back to school, i asked my teacher to open the door so i could stay in the classroom and she did so, once i got in i looked around and sat on my seat, it was good to see that i wasn't surrounded by bullies now...and i smiled at this, i was alone in the classroom after all, cause the teacher left to her classes.
i stayed in the classroom and when i heard the bell ring, i prepared my stuff for the next classes.
James again sat next to me and began speaking to me but i ignored his flirting, i have made a huge mistake when i thought he was different. About Mary, I didn't spoke to her since i arrived and the same happened to me, she didn't approach me nor dared to even stare at me, i guess i knew she didn't knew what to say not only about what happened weeks ago but also of my returning to school, it is almost finishing, maybe i would stay in the same class again cause of been home recovering but my parents for sure that won't tell that to the teachers after all they didn't even took care of me, it was Smiley Mask and Mighty who did so...They are not ones that can sign my parents' papers that's asking too much to Smiley, he had already make too much for me including giving me a reason to live, if it wasn't for them both i'd have been dead by now, i'd kill myself or i'd end up being killed for the many times i was beated or because of starvation, that's also suicide though...
I hated to think of that and wanted to stop the other people from commiting suicide but i can't because i also wanted the same... but not anymore now i have 2 reasons to live, Mighty and Smiley Mask... I wonder...if i died what would my parents do? Would they even care? No...of course not...they would just burn my stuff and bury my body somewhere not caring about making me a funeral...my uncle did not appear for months either, what did smiley mask did to him? My parents don't stop bothering me about him since i might be the last one who saw him, i kept telling the same lie, i told that i last saw him going out, why? because they would call me whore or worse...
i kept thinking for the whole day about random things that when i came back to earth, the bell was ringing so that we could go back to our places, i mean to their places...i don't have one...i don't belong anywhere...i will never have a home...that makes me feel cold, a cold that not even the warmest cover can make disappear...
my thoughts were cutted off by a presence, i looked up and saw Mary and kept staring confused and then silence filled the air, she didn't knew what to ask because she knew the answers i'd give her, like all the answers were written all over my face, she looked down and walked away and i did the same.
when in my room i did the same as always, i sat on my bed and told Mighty about my day, made draws and got entertained.
At night, Mighty went out and brought a box with food for me and i gladly accepted it, hours later i was already on my bed and slept.