Lend Me Your Boyfriend

Chapter 12

Saturday. Some days it is better not to get out of bed, and that was one of them. I starting to lift me with a lingering headache, and not wanting breakfast. Then in the hospital, I waited for the worst news. One of the quintuplets, the child was in intensive care, he had not passed the night.

Entering the room Amanda and Tom was so depressing I would rather not have to, but it was my job, and should. The face of Amanda was a constant source of tears. His eyes were red, and energy had abandoned her. Having cribs in the room with her three other babies, was a reminder that was two. The one who had died, and the girl who was struggling to survive. What comfort could I give if my own tears struggled to boil over too?.

I spent my time relaxing, sitting in front of an incubator, watching the small Prescotchest move with each breath. Knowing that was still there, fighting, it was the only thing that gave me hope. She could not give up, I had to keep fighting, and damn if he did.Every minute that did not surrender, was a minute robbed him to death.

When I finished my turn, I felt my body very energetic. It seemed as if a steamroller had passed me over twice. I hardly noticed there was someone standing in front of me until I felt like I shook his shoulder.

- Mary, are you okay?.-

I looked, and there was Tonny. I felt strong, safe, durable, something firm to hold on to, before the waves dragged me into the sea and drown me. And I did not think, just acted. My arms clung to his shirt, and buried my face in his chest. And I cried. I cried all the tears I could not shed all morning. And he did not tell me anything, just took me in his arms and pressed me against him. There were no words, they did not lack. I held it there as long as needed, until my body relaxed. When I stepped away from his body, it was still a huge blur in front of me.

- Thank you.-

- I thought you needed .-

- If.-

I felt his protective arm strong and taking me by the waist, and stick to your body, where I settled, as we walked out into the parking lot.

- You want to tell what happened?.-

- No, I do not want to mourn. Later perhaps.-

- It's okay.-

We walked a few steps up to the SUV. He helped me up and tied my belt. You really could not do it ?. Not really. At that moment, I felt like a 5 year old girl, fragile and unprotected. I felt accommodated behind the wheel and start the engine. Then, as if my brain back to life, consciousness returned me to the present.

- What are you doing here?.-

- I thought I could save the bus trip home, so you could rest a bit before going to the center Social.-

- You really are a heaven, you know? .-

He smiled, and returned attention to the road. Then my vision cleared completely, and I could see the mess I made on his shirt.

- Oh my God. You're soaked! .-

Tonny fingers slid over the almost transparent cotton fabric, and split the skin on which it was attached. He laughed, the guy laughed.

 -Yes, they say that in Miami does not rain.-

- Do not make me laugh. I have wet -

- Quiet, soon dry up.-

A few minutes later, the smile returned to abandon my face.

- Do you remember what you talk about Thursday?.-

- About quintuplets?.-

I nodded.

- Remember I told you that there were two very unwell?.-

- You commented that one of the boys, and girls, were in the unit OVERSIGHT.

- The child did not succeed.-

I noticed the tears back to my face, and quickly wiped away with the sleeve of my jacket. I noticed Tonny's hand closed over mine, I was on my lap.

- I am sorry.-

He did not have to feel it, it was not his fault, but to hear him say that was my suffering was more than I expected. His hand was warm, and seemed to be the cable that gave me the energy I needed.

- It happens more times than I want, but yes, it's my job. Just ... it is that sometimes I find it hard to accept.-

- I get it. You want to be a midwife, bringing new lives into the world. You're not meant to see them go as soon.-

Do you really understand me?, if it seemed so.

The car stopped next to my apartment building, and Tonny turned off the engine, but did not leave the vehicle.

- I'm here if you need me. Anyway, I'm already wet.-

- Oh, silly. Go up, I can secártelo with the hair dryer.-

When we entered the room, I noticed again wrap the cold loneliness of days past.

- Taking.-

I turned my face to run into Tonny's bare chest. The shirt was on hand tended towards me.

- Clear. Wait here, I'll be right. Take what you want from the refrigerator. -

When I returned with the garment dry and warm, I found Tonny sitting at the kitchen island, drinking a bottle of cold water, and reading something that was on the counter.

- Here it is warm and everything .-

- Thank you. I have seen that you have left alone again.-

He tipped the bottle on the note and I took a look. Yes, it was Jane letter. Anyway, I was getting used to eating alone.

- Fancy a hot wings?. I know a great food van, we are left way to the center, Social.-

Yes why not?. I did not feel like cooking, and being alone even less.

- Sounds like a good idea. I change and go.-

It may take him Noah demons if he learns that I have gone out to eat with Tonny, but fuck. They had no regrets about leaving me alone to me.