I'm Stupidly In Love With You

Chapter Twenty Eight ~ Messed Up

Chapter Twenty Eight ~ Messed Up

Pierre’s POV:

She left. She’s now gone. And I fucked it up again. Bullshit!

Ang tanga mo kasi Pierre! You always ruin everything. Ngayon, you can’t have her for good. She moved out of your shitty life permanently. And you even hurt her for the last time. Gago ka talaga! You are such an asshole.

“AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!” I screamed after I punched the wall. I didn’t stop punching it kahit na masakit na at dumudugo na ang kamay ko. I didn’t care. For all I know ay wala ng mas sasakit pa sa pagtalikod niya sakin. She has given up on me.

Ang sakit sakit pala. Parang ngang mas gugustuhin ko na lang mamatay ngayon.

Mas masakit pala malaman na binitawan ka na ng taong nagmamahal sayo ng sobra. Nakakapagod siguro akong mahalin.

Ngayon I was crying while still punching the wall. Binubuhos ko dito lahat ng sama ng loob ko. Naupo na kos sahig while crying.

At ngayon parang di ko pa rin matanggap na nawala na sa akin ang babaeng minamahal ko.

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Ngayon nandito ako sa isang bar at nagpapakalango sa alak. I felt worst. Feeling ko wala nang saysay ang buhay ko. Wala na sa akin si Fallon. I can’t have her back. She’s mad at me. Lalo ko lang pinalala ang lahat sa amin.

Siya na mismo ang nagsara ng pintuan ng puso niya sakin. She turned her back on me. At sobrang sakit kasi naman kung kailan sobrang mahal ko na siya tsaka pa nangyari ‘to.

While she turned her back on me, my world collapsed. When she left feeling ko nawala na rin ang buhay ko. She even took my heart with her. So tell me how could I live now? Tell me how will I continue this shitty life kung wala na ang buhay ko?

She made me fall for her so hard, six feet under the ground. Ngayon paano ko aahon mula sa pagkakalunod sakanya. I was so into her. It felt like my world was revolving around her. She was my sun and moon. Now, we are worlds apart.

Her memories kept on haunting me.  Now, I live just by her memories.

But I can’t just blame her. Ako naman ang may kasalanan ng lahat ng ito. Kung sana ipinaglaban ko lang siya. Kung di lang ako naduwag.

Di ko alam kung pangilang bote ko na ang alak ‘to, but I don’t care. I’m a mess now.  A bulk of crap. At hindi na ko ulit maayos. But I know si Fallon pa rin ang taong may kakayahang gumawa nun. She broke me pero still I know that she's the only one who could fix me again.

Only she could revive my dying heart.

I was drinking my nth number of alcohol when someone stole it from me.

“What the heck Lionne, are you trying you trying to kill yourself?!” sigaw niya sakin while holding the bottle of beer she snatched from me.

Napalingon naman ako sakanya.

“Shut up Eunice! I’m not in the mood for your rants.” I flatly said to her.

“Whatever, Lionne! Promise tatanda talaga ko sa’yo!” she said exasperatedly.

“I’m not your business to meddle with Eunice, kaya please lang leave me alone.” I said coldly at her at tinuloy ang pag-inom ko.

“Ewan ko sa’yo Lionne! Ano bang ginagawa mo sa sarili mo ha?! Nagpapakalunod ka sa alak dito?” she yelled again.

“I told you Eunice leave me alone. Gusto ko mapagisa.” I yelled back. Nagulat naman ata si Eunice at mukhang natakot. Ang kulit naman kasi niya she keeps on nagging. The hell!

“S-sorry. Nag-aalala lang naman kasi ako sa’yo.” She muttered.

“Well you don’t have to. Mabuti pa umuwi ka nalang.” I said to her tapos tumayo na ko. Pupunta ko sa bar counter to get another bunch of liquor.

Kaso I felt dizzy kaya naman di ko napansin na may naabangga pala ko.

“Aaaaaaaaaahhhhh!” the girl squealed. Napayakap kasi ako dun sa babae.

Then di ko na alam ng nangyari dahl sa bilis bigla na lang may naghila sakin at hinawakan ako sa kwelyo.

“Tarantado ka ah!” sabi nito tapos he punched me in the face.  Ngayon medyo were creating a scene in the bar.

Kaya ayun I gumanti ako dun sa lalaki. Pero may mga back-up pala at nasuntok ulit ako nung kasama niyang isa at nasipa din nung isa.

Hanggang sa di ko na alam ang nangyari dahil pinagtulungan nila kong tatlo. I tried to fight for myself but just can’t nahihilo na ko and I felt numb.

“TAMA NA!” I heard someone said.

Nakabulagta na ko sa sahig.

“Pasalamat ka may babaeng nagligtas sa’yo! Sa susunod tutuluyan na talaga kita para sa pambabastos mo sa girlfriend ko!” sabi nung lalaki.

May mga dumating rin na bouncer ng bar kaya napalabas sila at pati ako.

Inalalayan ako ni Eunice papalabas.

Nasa may parking lot kami at inupo niya ko sa may gilid.

She gets something from her bag. Then after a moment she held my chin

“Hold still.” She said to me. Pero pinalis ko yung kamay niya,

I heard her sighed.

“Lillinisin ko lang yung sugat mo.” She said. At hinawakan muli yung mukha ko.

Pero still inalis ko lang yung kamay niya.

“Pwede ba umalis ka na?! Iwan mo na ko! Bakit mo ba ginagawa ‘to?!” I yelled at her.

“Nag-aalala lang naman ako sa’yo Lionne! Di mo ba nakikita yun?!” she said.

“There’ s no use for that Eunice. I messed up already.” I said to her.

“Bakit ka ba nagkakaganyan?” she said. Di ko siya sinagot.

“Ano ba Lionne?!” she said at halatang naiinis. But still I just let her.

“Nakakainis ka na!” she said then she thrown her medicine kit at me.

“Kainis!” she said then she hit me at the chest. She keeps on saying and doing that until I caught her hand then I pulled her by the nape I started kissing her.

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Ajuju! Ansavee?! Bahala di ko alam paano ko nagawa ang chapte na ito. Hahahaha. Buseet. Bawi bawi rin sa update. Tatambakan ko kayo hohoho. J

Sorry sabaw.

Oo nga pala. Sino ba si Eunice? XD

Sige Till next.

Laters!

Lovelots,