Helpless | Destiel college a.u.

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– Cas –

Christmas was lonely without Dean.

Michael and Luci managed to get along the whole time I was home. I told them and my dad that I was gay, and they were all accepting of it.

Gabe asked me about Dean and I answered his questions vaguely.

On Christmas morning, we all opened our gifts from each other and I opened the one Dean had given me last.

The first thing I saw after carefully peeling back the newspaper was the sheet from my journal that he had ripped out. On it was a surprisingly detailed drawing of me sleeping. I smiled and put it to the side, picking up the other two items that had been wrapped in the paper.

One was a new journal, bound in black leather. On the front cover in small, fancy gold lettering were my initials.

The other thing was a small candle in the scent "Sherlock's Study". I smiled, remembering the weekends that I had forced him to watch Sherlock with me in our dorm.

i couldn't find the studio version of this song but it's alright because it's more authentic this way

ALSO JENSEN SOUNDS LIKE DEAN WHEN HE SINGS THIS BECAUSE ITS SO LOW AND IT BREAKS MY HEART