Helpful Insight (BoyxBoy)

Chapter One

I wake up to a bright sun above the horizon, it is about 11:00 am. I actually fell asleep last night.

I get up, grab my towel, and my music player, then I crank up my music and hop into the hot shower water. I live in a small apartment building with my parents. Usually I have to be mindful of my music, but since it is a Sunday people are usually at church or are recovering at a friends house after some party or something like that.

I start scrubbing my hair when "Perfect" by P!nk is being played. I love the video to this song because you can feel the hurt, the pain, the suffering, and in the end the comfort that comes from P!nk's voice as she sings those lyrics.

Perfect. If only there were such a thing.

I look down at my wrists.

I'm far from perfect. In fact I'm the complete opposite.

There are so many things that are wrong with me. I cut, starve myself, can never sleep, I'm hated by everyone, and I'm gay. Wow I'm a mess.

I quickly finish my shower, dry off, and get dressed.

I sit down on my bed. Oh great! School starts tomorrow.

I hate school. I hate every bully and asshole in that whole damn place. At least I get peace and quiet during lunch. Socializing is more fun then bothering me I guess, not that I'm complaining.

I'm the loner of the school. I eat by myself and work on projects alone. My only friend is Ashlynn. We have been friends since the first grade and I am generally surprised that we have remained friends over the decade. It's not like she is annoying or anything, in fact she is the only person who knows I'm gay, but she is one of the popular kids, and she continues to gain popularity.

Speaking of Ashlynn. We planned to hang out today before summer ended.

I grab my car and house keys and head out.

The day with Ashlynn. This is going to be interesting.