Behind the Mask

Chapter 13: Heartbroken

Chapter 13: Heartbroken

My alarm clock started playing Jar of Hearts by Christiana Perri. I opened my eyes to my dark room. These lyrics didn’t fit my mood at all, not one bit. It was strange sometimes song lyrics fit my mood perfectly. But this time I was glad they didn’t.

Pushing myself out of bed I changed to the song, getting up I flicked on a light illuminating my room. It was only six o’clock, I had plenty of time to amble my morning away.

I walked to my closet switching on the light. I just stared at it, I settled on a flare pair of miss me jeans and a long sleeve shirt with a cardigan over it. It was warm and cozy. We would be out of school in four days and then sweet winter break.

Ah peace and quiet no more studying madly for finals, winter break was the perfect time for a break. I pulled on my clothes and a pair of high top black converse. Heading towards the bathroom I applied the same simple make up I had done yesterday.

The smell of blueberry pancakes wafted up the stairs. Paul and I’s favorite. Turning off the lights I went down stairs my mouth watering. It was a family get together, my mother in the kitchen getting drinks, Paul sitting at the table reading the paper and Pierre flipping pancakes.

A huge smile broke onto my face. We hadn’t had a family meal like this in a while. It was a nice change; I was in a great mood. Maybe tonight my mother and I could find where we stand. I went up to Pierre and grabbed the piling stack of pancakes to take them to the table.

“Isabel what do you want to drink?” My mom asked.

“Just water please,” I smiled serving myself some pancakes. Adding some butter and syrup and I was in heaven. I polished off another two pancakes before I was full.

“Thanks, that was delicious.” I said getting up carrying my plate over. “Love you,” I said giving my mother a kiss and a hug before collecting my stuff. “See you guys tonight, dinner is on me.” I said before heading out the door.

The lime green Ducati looked stark in the white snow, I pulled on my helmet and gloves before firing it up. I was careful for ice patches as I headed towards school.

First and for most I would find Cameron and ends things, that was never going to work out and I kept denying what was right in front of me. I parked my bike and sat there for a minute.

I would have to face Cameron sooner or later. It would be easier to break up with him than continue an already doomed relationship and deem me a cheating slut. So I was going to take the first option. Sooner.

Getting off I took off my helmet gripping it tightly. I managed my way across the lot slipping at a few spots here and there. I was done with the fake, no more Amber or Cameron or the others.

All I needed to make me truly happy was Alice, Ben and James. That’s all I needed, they were the ones who truly cared about me. I spotted Alice and Ben at their usual spot out front. They were bracing the cold.

I made my way over, Alice just glared at me with white hot daggers and Ben wouldn’t even look at me. They were angry and they had every right to be but I needed to fix that.

“Hey,” I said meekly.

“What the hell do you want?” Alice hissed.

“To talk, I made a mistake.”

“Damn right you did.” Alice said leaning into Ben.

“But at least let me explain,” I started.

“You had your time, now it’s gone. Come on Ben let’s go.” She snarled taking his hand in hers and walking away.

I wasn’t expecting an easy rebuild there but it had to happen she was no is my best friend, and that will never change in my eyes. I would earn their respect again not sure when but I would.