Perfect Imperfections

Chapter 3

A/N - Okay so let me first start off with I know that it is horrible how long i have made you guys wait and I completely understand if none of you want ever to read any of my work again, but let me first explain to you why I left for so long. I have had a horrible history with a pinched nerve and numbness in my arm and back and therefore I have had no way to type for long periods of time. You see, I write all of my books in notebooks on paper and then add them here, but I can't sit up and type without tremendous pain. So I apologize, however I can say that I am back after so long of treatment and everything to get it fixed. I am very sorry and I hope you enjoy the rest of my books. Also I will be starting a new one on here as well as finishing these two. I'd really appreciate it if you checked it out. Now onto the story.

      Once the final bell sounded I was ready to go home. The day had been filled with anxiety and stress and I wanted to leave however I was not ready to go home to have to deal with Ray and more stress and anxiety. But I had no choice and I had to leave. So here I was, walking down the street in the Florida heat and wishing Life wasn't filled with so many disappointments. I really did not want to go home and deal with even more stress and anxiety however life was cruel and here I was standing at my front door. 

      I entered without a word and quickly made it up to my room with no one in my line of sight. I silently locked my door and sat on my mattress, heart pounding. I hate this honestly. A burst of frustration ran through me at the thought of me having to live in fear in my own house. This is bullshit. I can do whatever I want and I should not have to live with consequences of being a normal teenager. I refuse to let Ray control my life any longer. I stood up from my bed, a new found set of determination running through my veins and stepped downstairs. 

     I was going to eat and not worry about him at all. The moment I stepped into the kitchen, a gross combination of alcohol and burnt food reached my nostrils making me grimace. What is that? I glance into the cooking area and see Ray standing there, attempting to cook what looked like eggs. He heard me enter and turned to sneer at me. 

"There you are, bitch. Come make me some eggs. I'm hungry." He spoke staring at me with beady eyes, like a rat. I shuddered at the thought of what he could do to me and then I felt my resolve crumble into pieces. Feeling defeated, I walked into the kitchen silently and did what he asked as he did god knows what in the living room. Slowly I walked into the living room carrying his eggs like he asked, along with a beer. He snatched the food from me and didn't utter a word. Seeing as I was dismissed, I ran back into my room and locked my door. 

    Sighing, I sat down on my bed. Why was I such a wimp? If I wanted to I could easily escape him. So could my mother. A knot of helplessness settled into my chest as I choked on a sob. I hated how weak my mother had become. Ever since dad died, she seems to not care at all that we are in this position. Suddenly memories of that night came flashing back to me before I could stop them. Red and blue flashing lights, darkness, my dads lifeless body hanging from the ceiling of our attic in Wisconsin. Suddenly I had the horrible urge to harm myself. It was my fault after all. 

    If I hadn't of made such a big deal over everything when I was younger, if I was an easier child, if only I had been better behaved. He would still be here. I mindlessly walked to my bathroom and grabbed my nearest razor and ran the warm bath for myself. Getting undressed, I stepped into the warm water, letting it envelop me. It was relaxing and feeling the familiar sharp pain in legs and in my arms made me instantly feel better. It was as if all of my stress was leaving my body and into the warm water along with the swirls of red. I started feeling the familiar tug of sleep at the edge of my eyes, so i rinsed myself off and dragged my naked body into bed, making sure my door was firmly locked with a chair placed in front of it. As I lay in bed, right before I drifted off, I heard a deep and haunting howl in the distance of the night. My last fleeting thought was of a wolf in the woods with bright green eyes.   

Alright I understand that that was sort of a filler chapter but that's because shit is gonna start escalating in the next few chapters and I needed some small way to introduce our main protagonists feelings and our antagonist. So I will try to update every week from now on, however I cant say what day it will be every week it will just be once a week. Until next time <3