Fake Smiles (Jaele)

A bit of confidence

Riele's POV
It's been about a month since the live stream and things have gotten a little better. The hate has gone down a lot which is pretty good.

Jace hasn't left my side since that day. His family actually took me in which was super sweet of them. Before you say anything, they haven't adopted me so Jace and I can NOT be classed as siblings. They're fostering me. How weird would that be? Me and Jace as siblings?... Ew.

It was hard to say goodbye to everyone but I still see Harmony a lot. This is actually a bitter sweet story. So you remember that Jade is on School of Rock right? Well she ended up getting feelings for Ricardo, the boy who plays Freddy on the show. Jade broke up with Sean which I totally understand. You can't be with someone who you don't have feelings for. It wouldn't be fair to that person. Sean was really sad at first but eventually he came to terms with it. I brought Harmony with me to hang out with everyone else and her and Sean clicked. It took him a couple days but eventually he asked her out Harmony said yes and they're still dating.

Jace is helping me with my eating. We're making a bit if progress.... That's a lie. I'm trying to eat but it's really hard. If I put on weight the fans are gonna say that I'm fat again but if I don't eat they'll just say I'm too thin. It feels like everyone is telling me who I should be. They called me fat so I lost weight. Then I was too thin. They said I was ugly so I wore make up. Then they said a girl my age should not be wearing make up. They wanted me dead and because of that I almost killed myself. That still wasn't enough. I can't wear heels, but without them I'm short. I shouldn't wear make up, but without it I'm ugly. I should diet, but that makes me TOO thin... It's all so confusing. I never know what I can and can't do. I shouldn't even be worrying about what the fans think. I'm my own person and I know that but I can't help but feel that if the fans aren't happy with me then I must have done something wrong. Girls are held up to such high standards in today's society. I just don't get why guys have it easy. As long they're nice to fans and look hot everything is cool. With girls you have to be a certain height, you can't weigh too much but you can't weigh too little either. You basically have to be perfect.... Which is impossible

Jace: Rie rie?

Jace asked peeping his head in my dressing room.

Riele: Yeah Jace?

I asked looking through my instagram feed.

Jace: You gonna come get lunch with us?

He asked. I know that I should just say yes and avoid a very annoying attempt of persuasion from Jace but if I can get out of it I will.

Riele: I'm not really hungry

I said not looking up from my phone. I heard him sigh and before I knew it my phone was out of my hand.

Riele: *glares* Dude!

Jace: Listen you need to eat

Riele: I never said I won't. I just said I'm not hungry

I defended myself.

Jace: By now we all know "I'm not really hungry" means you don't want to eat

Riele: Um..... Whaaaaaat?

Ah great! My stupid voice went too high!

Jace: And you're lying. And before you you're not lying I know you are because that's your lying voice

Riele: N-

Jace: Yes it is

I glared at him.

Riele: Ugh stop knowing me so well!

I groaned. He chuckled a little.

Jace: Come on Riele

Riele: Can I win here?