Passengers || An Adrienette Fanfic

Chapter 10 || Drizzle

(DON'T PLAY THE SONG YET)

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Adrien's POV

The moment Mari left the cabin, I instantly rushed to get the towel and my clothes to take a bath. To do anything basically, as long as it took my mind off what I said. I briskly walked towards the bathroom of the airplane, wishing I wouldn't bump into any goddamn passenger – any bluenette for that matter.

Thankfully, the bathroom was unoccupied. It said I only had a maximum of five minutes to take a shower. Sweet Jesus, that was short. I immediately took of my clothes and hopped into the shower. The warm water poured down my head, easing the tension out of my body, as if the mist carried away all my problems and frustrations. I grabbed the vanilla-infused shampoo and conditioner and the sandalwood scented soap from the rack and applied it on my without further delay. Everything was going well until the goddamn classical music blasted through the speakers mounted on the upper right corner of the "bathroom" causing me to drop the soap on my foot.

"Ouch!" I barked. "First was the rutting bluenette, then the soap. What's next?" And as if on cue, the water from the showerhead stopped pouring. The timer beside the rack flashed the numbers: 0:00 in bright red.

"No more water. Great. Whoopee." At least I washed off most of the conditioner and soap before the water stopped flowing.

I hopped out of the glass shower door, instantly feeling the soft rug beneath my feet. I wiped myself dry and put on my clothes. I ducked my head around the corner of the door leading to the hallway and scanned the area for any approaching passengers. After making sure no one was there, I dashed into my cabin and sat on the bed. A faint crunch sound sounded across the cabin. I stood up and looked at the place where I sat. I then saw a rumpled piece of paper staring back up at me, begging to be read.

(PLAY THE SONG NOW)

I picked up the note and my heart sank the moment I processed the words written on the paper.

To: Adrien

I'm leaving and don't come after me.
(As if you would)

From: The Queen you lost xx

What have I done?

I'm such a jerk.

Bastard.

Fool.

Player.

I shouldn't have said that. I shouldn't have yelled at her. I shouldn't have done that just because I was falling for the girl. I shouldn't have done that. I'm a fool. I'm a fool. I'm a goddamn fool. I shouldn't have taken out my anger on her.

How stupid can I be? I always think about myself. What I feel. What I want.

I sat hunched on my knees, palms pressing onto the sides of my head, and fingers clawing at my hair, as if it would take away the problem. The low hum of the airplane's engine and the drizzle that hit the windows kept me company, kept anyone else from hearing me cry. Hot tears streamed down my face, the drops falling on the note that was left on the floor. The ink slowly spreading across the paper like a grapevine crawling on the wooden posts. The black ink faded into deep purple then into light blue, as if the night sky was intentionally painted on it.

My mind went back to the moment I called Nino, when he told me the difference between love and infatuation. The problem is - I've already thought about that and it's haunted me everywhere I go. Everyday.

Truth is - I know I love Lila, but do I really feel it? Is it just my mind telling my heart what to do or is it what I truly feel for the girl?

When I talk to Lila, blood instantly rushes to my cheeks, but somehow I feel like I can't be myself without being judged. But when I talk to Mari, I feel free and more open about things as if we have a connection hidden deep down between all our sass and sarcasm. When I look at Lila, - at her pictures, I mean - I instantly swoon over her. My mouth starts to utter the most flattering words my mind could muster up. It's as if I was looking at a fiery sunrise, with the warm colors slowly blending in with the blue of the morning. But when I look at Mari... It's different. I don't instantly swoon over her as if I was obligated to - no. When I look at her, there would be no other word to describe her than beautiful. She was beautiful in every way. She was the warm sunrise to start the day with a smile, the beautiful sunset at the end of the day, and the cool night that shone with stars to light up the black endless pit in the sky.

The rain poured down harder, more tears streamed down my face. My hands shook uncontrollably; I felt a pang in my chest. As if someone was holding my heart in their hand, slowly closing around it until it was in their grasp. Minutes drifted away until the hand was a part of the heart, until I felt like I couldn't live without it. It may sound painful, but it's not. It's warm. It feels like home. She felt like home.

They say that there are all kinds of love in this world, but never the same love twice. If this was love, then I'd gladly endure everything for and with her. I want to tell her that I miss her. That I'm unstable. I want to tell her that I'm sorry. That I need her.

I want to tell her that I'm a train wreck and that I don't have my life together, but it's okay because she's there to keep me on the ground. To help me pull the breaks when I know the train will fall off the edge.

I want to tell her that I love her, and I can.

I just wished she remembered. Wished she understood. Wished she knew I was the one who saved her that night. No - I shouldn't think about that. At least not now; I'll tell her when we're both ready.

I didn't know how long I stayed in that position. I didn't know how long I cried. I didn't know how long I remained in the same state of hopeful yet lost in doubt, but I got up and walked.

Out of the cabin.

To look for my Princess.

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HI BOO ♡ TBH, I got teary eyed while writing this chapter HHAHAhahahuhu... Anyway!! I made this chapter a bit longer for you guys because I haven't updated in 2 weeks (yikes) Actually, this was supposed to be in the same chapter as chapter 11 buuuuuttttt I'm a devil and I like leaving cliffhangers so y'all should wait hehe...

Chapter 11 is going to be the next update!! (you'll need even more tissues btw lmao AAHAHAH) Sorry if it took a while for the update :(( I got caught up in practicing my stunts for cheer and with studying (yikesss) Lmao, our cheer performance is on my birthday  *squirms* Wish me luck!!

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Yanna