My Helpless Romance (Editing)

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Autumn
Ian just stares into my eyes. I do the same. 

"What are you going to d-" I cut him off by smashing my lips onto his.

Ian

AUTUMN KISSED ME!! I swear it was like fireworks going off in my stomach. She jumps and wraps her legs around my waist. I back her into the wall. Wait, why is she doing this?? I know she doesn't like me. I heard what she said to Loren. She pulls back. 

"What was that for?" I ask nervously.

Autumn

"What was that for?" He asks. 

"A dare." I say, lying. I wanted to do that. I somewhat like Ian. I mean he isn't as hot as Jacob but he has always been there for me. 

"Ok Autumn look, You need to stop doing dares. It hurts people in ways you wouldn't understand," He says with a hurt look covering his face. 

"I never said the dare was to kiss you. It was to kiss someone I like other than Jacob," I says. 

"Wait you like me?" he asks. 

"I don't know maybe I do maybe I don't. This should answer your question," I say as I grab his hand. I flip him on the ground. Then I sit on his chest and kiss him again. He pulls away.

 "I am so confused," He says.

 "Good," I say smirking. 

"Can we just work on the project?" he asks. I nod and get off of him before making my way to my room.

Loren
I was sitting on my bed when my phone started ringing. 

"Hello?" I say into the phone. 

"Hey Cutie!" The person says back.

 "Jacob I told you that I don't like you. Can you stop calling me cute and everything."

 "Why?? Is it that bad to talk to your crush??"

 "It is when my best friend has a HUGE crush on you."

 "I know, I know. I will talk to Autumn. She is really cute by the way. Don't tell her I said that though." 

"Whatever," I say hanging up. I don't like Jacob. Okay maybe I do. But just a little bit. He also likes Autumn. Like 5% and he likes me like 95%. He doesn't even like Ariel. He thought I would get jealous. But I'm not the jealous type. Autumn is though. So, me dating Jacob is a VERY bad idea. I like Ian more than I like Jacob.  But Ian likes Autumn. Obviously. I mean I might be the jealous type when it comes to them but I don't really get jealous.

Autumn
Ian and I walk downstairs into the kitchen. The project was finished.

 "What do you wanna eat?" He asks me. 

"Food," I say. He just looks at me like I'm retarded.

 "I don't think we have any of that. But here eat some plastic.," He says trying not to laugh. I look at him and all of a sudden he couldn't stop laughing. I join in and soon enough we are basically rolling on the floor crying because we were laughing so hard.

 "Just give me some food!" I whine as I get off the floor and wiping my eyes. 

"Aw. Is the little baby hungry?" He asks getting up also. 

"Yes berry hungry," I say in a baby voice. He comes over to me and kisses the top of my head. He makes some food and places a plate of pizza in front of me.

 "Really pizza..." I say. He nods his head.

Loren
So in couple minutes, Jacob is coming over. I guess I have to try something new. I mean Ian will never like me and Jacob is in love with me so why not. I was snapped out of my thoughts by Jacob walking in. 

"Hey Loren," He says.

 "Hey," I say. My depression has come back recently. It hurts and long sleeves are my go to cover up.

 "What you thinking about?" he asks.

 "Nothing." I sit on my bed, Jacob follows and sits next to me.

Jacob

I take my hand and place it beside her head but with every touch she resists. And then I see the cuts that bury deep within her wrists. I say "How long has it been since you felt this way because you got me here just feeling so helpless." 

She says, "It's been a while I guess I needed better luck."

 And then I yell at her and scream, "Baby never cut!!" She breaks down into tear. 

"Jacob you don't know what it's like," She sighs. 

"I don't know what what's like?" I ask, laughing at her statement.

 "You don't know what it's like to love someone who doesn't love you back. You don't know what it's like to have that person rub it in your face that he's in love with your best friend. You don't know what it's like to love your best friend," She says as the tears just stream down her face.

 "I do know what it's like. I love you and you love God knows who." 

"I never said I didn't liked you!!" She says. She storms off into the bathroom. 

"LOREN DON'T YOU DARE!!!" I scream following after her. She went to her makeup bag and grabs a razor. I grab it from her and she tries to take it to me. I wrestle her to the floor. 

"STOP IT!!!" She screams.

 "No." Loren struggles to get up.  I stay on top of her until she calms down. When she calms down I let go of her arms. 

"Are you okay no-" I ask. She cuts me off by kissing me. When she pulls away I look at her.

 "Why?? I thought you didn't like me," I say, my confusion making my brain hurt. She doesn't say anything all she does is show me her arm.