Jacob's POV
When I get to the hospital the next day, Autumn and her mother and both crying as they stare at a stack of papers. "What's going on?" I ask. Autumn looks up at me and gives me a weak smile. "Jacob," She smiles. I walk over to her and hug her. "What's going on?" I ask again. Autumn hands me the papers and I skim through them. "Autumn you can't seriously be thinking about assisted suicide," I say as tears brim my eyes. "Jacob it hurts. It hurts to breathe, to move. It hurts everywhere. I just want the pain to stop," She says as tears fall from her eyes. "I don't know what I'd do without you," I whisper. She sighs and places her lips on mine softly. A doctor walks in, his eyes are soft as he looks at the three of us. "Have you made a decision?" He asks. Autumn looks at her mother and then at me before nodding. He nods and walks over to us to grab the papers. I hug Autumn tightly. "How does 6 o'clock sound?" He asks. Autumn nods as she rests her head on my shoulder. "I love you. I love you so so so much," I whisper. "I love you more," She whispers back. "Jacob, You are the love of my life. And I know that this is going to be hard for you. I want you to be strong for me. And I know there will be a time where you fall in love with someone else. You will find happiness again," She says placing a kiss on my forehead. "I don't want to love anyone but you," I whisper basically balling my eyes out. "Don't do that. Don't doubt yourself. You have to move on." Her words are stern but her words are soft. I nod and just hold her in my arms. 6 o'clock comes by faster than I wished it would. "You're going to feel a tight pinch. It will be all over in 15-20 minutes," The doctor says as he preps her. He injects something into her vein and once he does that, I crawl into the bed and pull Autumn onto my lap, cuddling into her small body. I place small kisses on her cheek. Her mother holds her hand and we all just cry. "I love you. I love you both so much," Autumn whispers. "I love you too," Her mother and I say in unison. It takes her about 20 minutes. Her grip loosens on her mother's hand and from around my neck. Her mother becomes hysterical. I place her limp body on the bed and place a kiss on her forehead. "You were my first love. I will never forget you, Autumn," I whisper as tears pour out of my eyes. You don't realize someone is gone until they are really gone. It didn't feel real. As I walked out of the hospital and called an Uber to go back to the airport to join the tour again, it didn't feel real. It didn't feel right. I wanted to text her, call her. But she would never answer. She was gone. Dead.
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I cried while writing this... There will probably be like 2 more chapters! Ughh this book has been through so much. Love you guys!
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My Helpless Romance (Editing)
FanficAutumn has been in love with Jacob Sartorius since kindergarten or at least says she has been. Has she been completely blind? Has the person that she actually loves been in front of her the whole time?
