When lies and truth become blurred

Tension

Tension, the air is thick with it. Am I the only one that can feel it?  It's hard to concentrate. My head is dizzy and it's hard to breath. Why are my muscles so tense? My hands are clenched. My teeth grind. I can't understand it. My brain is becoming sluggish my thoughts coming to a halt. I can't do this. I want to get away but I can't. I have to stay still. I have to work and do my job. I'm out with friends I can't ruin the night. I'm at school I can't leave. I'm at church I can't interrupt. You won't let me leave. I want to relax but my outlets are cut off from me. I have no choice but to suffer through. My head is pounding. I feel sick. When can this be over?  The corners of my vision are blurry. My body a coiled spring. Why won't you shut up and let this be done?? The tensions coming in waves. It's squeezing my lungs. All of this is leaving me so tired and drained yet my anger builds by the  minute. Why do you not let me leave? I've asked you to drop it. Why is it so important? Why can't we move on? Why does every discussion end up this way?   I can't breath. This has gone far enough. My anger boils over. My patience snaps. I feel the tension leave my body with every word that flys from my mouth. Yet when I am finally silent and my anger is gone as if it was never there I cannot help but wonder if it were worth it. You look at me like I'm  a criminal. Your face is pained and angered spitting in rage. But it's to bad for my anger has left me and I feel so empty. I am much to tired, completely drained. The thought of having to fight with you , my mind goes blank shutting off completely. I'm now a robot that your words bounce off of. The tension is thick again. Starting the same destructive cycle. Am I the only one that can feel it?