I'm not lazy or shallow. There's more to me than meets the eye. I have more talents than you know. Than I know for that matter. I want to do so much. I want to cook something delicious. I want to go on a hike or just long walk. I want to run. I want to work out and stay healthy. I want to redecorate. I want to learn how to ride a bike. I want to play with my dog. I want to learn something new. I want to crotchet a new blanket. Or sew a quilt. I want to do the chores I promised to do. I want to bake cookies, And make a pie. I want to paint. I want to dance. I want to laugh. I want to be happy. I don't want my family to worry. I get so excited and have so many ideas. I know just how I'll do it or at least how I'll start. I know I can do it. I just have .....to ... Start. But before I know it my ambition has left as fast as it came. My limbs have become heavy and my mind blurred. The air has bece heavy to breath in. A sleepiness takes over as I realize I never got up from were I was sitting. I can hear people say " just get up and do it! It's not so hard. You just have to get started. " but what they don't realize is, I'm incapable. I couldn't if I tried. I'd have to beg my body to go through Every movement. It would leave me totally drained unable to function, talking even to much a task. I will have hated the task rather than enjoying myself. Which is the whole point right? I really wanted to do it though........ I guess there's always tomorrow.
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When lies and truth become blurred
Kısa Hikaye"You do not know pain until your staring at yourself in the mirror with tears running down your face and begging yourself to just hold on and be strong. THAT is pain." TRIGGER WARNINGS! For depression Anxiety Anger And pretty much any n...
